Georgian Superstar

Chapter 7 - Did You Ever Like Me?

ONE YEAR LATER

Jason's POV

Angela and Josh had been dating for a year now. I thought I had moved on and forgot about her until one day.

We stopped going to Minnow Lane every Saturday because we all matured and didn't find it all that interesting anymore. But one day we decided to go there, for old times sake. Josh didn't come with us, since he was busy working on a ranch, but he didn't a few years ago, so we didn't miss him too much.

Angela wondered back down an path old I had made, but she didn't know I made it. I followed her down it, hoping she wouldn't find what I put there. But she did.

"Hey Jason, what's this?" she asked as she walked into a mini fort made out of logs.

"Um, what? Yeah, um, I'm not sure." I lied.

"Look, there's pictures of me everywhere." She walked around the little building, noticing all the pictures of her. To be honest, there weren't that many pictures. Only a few.

"That's strange."

She saw an old book with JOURNAL printed on it. She opened it up and flapped through a few pages before I could stop her.

"Hey, maybe you shouldn't read that. It's someone's personal journal." I said, trying to take the book away.

"Hm," She looked at me, "Yes. It's someone's that's for sure." She pointed at a journal entry where the author signed his name. It said Jason. Yes, it was my journal.

She just happened to flip to the day when I admitted to her I liked her.

"Can, um, can I read it?" She asked me.

I looked at the dirt floor, "Why not."

She read the entry out loud.

Dear Journal,

I always feel stupid writing 'Dear Journal', it makes it sound so sissy and girly. I guess I was pretty stupid today. I admitted to Josh and Angela that I liked Angela. It broke my heart when I saw him kissing her that day. I couldn't stand it. I just want her. She's so pretty, smart, and funny. I know that sounds like what every guy says about their crush, but I really mean it. She's so..so..ugh, I can't think of the perfect description. Anyway, I doubt she'll ever speak to me again, I mean, she probably thinks that now I hate her. But I don't. I can't ever hate her.

I'm probably never ever gonna talk to Angela again.

-Jason

I looked around, trying to think of something to say to her, but I couldn't think of anything. So I just waited for her response. Instead of words she came over and hugged me. I don't understand why, I mean, it's not like I still feel that way.

She opened the book back up and flipped to the last page. It was empty, so she flipped around until she saw my last entry. Again, she read it out loud.

Dear Journal,

Angela and Josh have been dating for a year. A whole year. It's been like three years or something since I've shown my feelings for her. I probably won't ever. But ya know, it's fine. She's happy with Josh. All I want is for her to be happy.

I still can't believe I learned guitar for her. I guess I'm glad I did. It's taken me far. I've played many talent shows and at small fairs. It's been really fun. It's also helped me with my singing. I've always loved singing, but I didn't think I could. Now that I'm older I think I'm getting pretty good. People love me at my shows. I wonder if I'll ever become famous. Nah. I mean, how could a heartbroken man become famous?