Finding Love Again

Apologies

Being away from Derek last night was awful. I tossed and turned most of the night and around one a.m. Stiles came in and crawled into bed next to me, we laid there and talked for the rest of the night up until the sun came up and we dragged ourselves down the stairs and into the kitchen.

I made the coffee while Stiles fixed us some bacon and eggs. That's how dad found us when he came down the stairs to leave for work, "You two look like hell, did you get any sleep last night?" he asked us, "No" we said in unison.

"Well Belle I get why you didn't sleep, but Stiles why didn't you get any sleep?" He asked my little brother, Stiles and I looked at each other then back at dad, "I stayed awake with Belle" was all he said. Dad nodded his head in understanding and went to get his coffee mug.

"Alright you two I'm off to the station and Belle, I hope that husband of yours straightens up you need sleep." He said and kissed the top of my head and headed out the door. Stiles and I laid our heads down on the table and just stayed that way in silence.  "So have you heard anything about my blood test yet?" Stiles asked. "No not yet, but I should hear something this week and when I do I'll let you know," I said and he nodded his head. We sat there quietly for some time until stiles spoke again.

"Belle, what are you thinking about?" he asked me and I let out a sigh and looked in his direction. "Derek" was all I said. He got a little excited "please tell me your thinking about going over there earlier than this evening?" he asked, this time I met his eyes. "Yep," I said, he jumped up and then I got up. "Good I'll drive," he said grabbing his keys and heading for the door. "Stiles why are we driving I live like five houses down," I said looking at him in amusement. "Oh yeah," he said and pocketed his keys and went out dads front door with me following behind.

We walked down the sidewalk toward my house, I wasn't going to get my hopes up to much. He had been acting that way for months so who knows if he can be fixed in one night. "Hey Belle, have you realized that you haven't thrown up since yesterday afternoon?" Stiles asked as we turned to walk down my driveway.  I thought for a moment and realized what he said was true. "Huh, maybe I hit my second trimester," I said and looked straight ahead towards the house. 

As the front door became more clear to see as we got close, I could see that it was wide open and Derek sat on the floor. He looked like he hadn't slept either, but he also looked deep in thought. It took no time for him to realize we were there and he stood to his feet. We climbed the steps and stood just mere feet from the door. "Belle, are you alright you look like you haven't slept?" Derek asked immediately when he got a good look at me, but I was in alpha mode so I wasn't dealing with his question's I wanted mine answered. 

"I'm not here to answer questions Derek I'm here to get answers," I said in my alpha voice he nodded his head and waited. "Derek Anthony Hale, have you thought about what you have done? The way you have treated your wife/alpha, and your pack members?" I asked him, "yes I have," he said, "Well," I said for him to continue. 

"I realize, that my actions were childish, but were only meant to try and keep you safe, I've never been through this before and it's all new to me and I just got carried away. Please, I promise to never act that way again and I ask that you and the pack accept my apology." He said. I could hear how sincere he was and believed he would no longer continue this behavior.

I nodded my head to Stiles and he broke that mountain ash barrier, I relaxed my body my eyes changed back to their normal shade of green. Derek stepped out of the house and slowly stepped closer to me his eyes seemed unsure like he didn't know if he could touch me or not. With a slight nod of my head, he wrapped his arms around me pulling me close to him, but he still wasn't relaxed I believe my alpha scarred him and I never wanted that.

Not being able to take it anymore I grabbed the back of his neck and pulled him towards me and placed my lips to his at that moment I could feel the tension leave his body, his muscles relaxed and he tightened his arms around my waist lifting me off the ground as he returned my kiss.  He set me back down and we just stood there my head on his chest and his head on mine. As if on cue my body decided to stop fighting my sleep and my legs gave out. In one quick motion, Derek had me up in his arms bridal style and carried me into the house.

"Come on you need some sleep," He said, "I'll only sleep if you do," I said to him, he smiles and kissed my lips and carried me up the steps, "Can I sleep on the couch?" Stiles' voice came from the door reminding me that he was still here. "As long as you shut and lock the door," I said. I heard the door shut and lock not even two seconds later.

Derek laid me on our bed, he took off my shoes, laid my phone and keys on the nightstand then walked around the bed and crawled in next to me. I rolled to face him and curled up with my head on his chest. By this time my body had completely relaxed and I was having trouble keeping my eyes open. "I love you" I whispered to Derek, he kissed my head "I love you, Belle," he said and that was the last thing I remember.