Maybe Not |Joshler|

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AN// Can I go back to the concert now? Rly missin it right about now...and like..everyotherdayaswell..

·Tyler's POV·

Today's the day I get to leave. Josh and I are laying in my hospital bed. My heart is racing. Only now, I realize that I kinda actually like Josh. I've never really liked a guy before...but Josh? He makes my heart pound and every time he touches me, it send tingles through my fingers and shivers down my spine.

I'm laying on his chest, holding his hand right now.

I feel him shift slightly. So I move my head. I hear him sigh.

"What's wrong?"
"It's...it-it's nothing."
He gives me an [almost] reassuring smile. But I can tell there's still something wrong.
"I know when you're lying, Josh."
"It's nothing. I promise, Tyler."
"Okay."
Maybe I should tell him now. That I'm bisexual. Not that I like him. I don't even know if he likes me.
"Can...can I tell you something?"
"Anything, Ty."
"Well...I've figured out that I'm...bisexual."
"That's great, Ty!"
"Yeah."
"How'd you figure that out?"
"I-I don't know...I j-just did."
"Well...that's great, Ty. Thanks for telling me."
"Yeah."
"Do you want to leave now?"
"Yeah. Let me just get the nurse. I'll get the papers to check out."

(later in the car)

I notice that Josh passes my house.

"Where are we going?"
"My house. You're not going back to your house. You're going to live with me now."
"Why?"
"I'm not okay with you living with them knowing now that they're your parents. I want you to be safe. And I couldn't live with myself if I let you go back to all that."
"Are your parents okay with me staying?"
"If I lived with them, they wouldn't be. But I have my own apartment now."
"Oh..okay."
"I went to your house and got all of your clothes and stuff."
"T-thank you."
He looks over at me and smiles.

·Josh's POV·

We get back to my house and Tyler lays down on my livingroom couch.
God, he's so cute. Even though he's in a rough shape right now.

Josh stop. You're with her now.

I decide to say something.

"I'll get you a glass of water."
"I can do it myself haha." he giggles out.
"No you can't. You have to stay still."
"Josh I can still-"
"The doctor said that you have to stay relaxed for the majority of this week so that you don't break open your stitches."
"It's not THAT big of a deal."
"No, you're right. Breaking open your stitches an dcollapsing your lungs, causing you to stop breathing? Nah. Not a bug deal." I relpy sarcastically.
"Well...when you put it like THAT.."
"THAT is exactly how it IS. Tyler."

I come back with his water and he takes a few sips before setting it down on the coffee table next to him.

"Come lay with me?"
I lay down.
He looks at me.
"Thank you."
"For what?"
"For saving me."
"It was nothing. Honestly."
He gets closer, still looking at me. He looks me in the eyes.
His eyes glance down to my lips and back up to my eyes.
He gets even closer, we're now nose to nose.
"You're the reason I'm here, Josh. I love you."
He smiles and gets closer.
Too close.
As our lips almost connect...

I pull away.
"I can't. I'm sorry."
"I-I just thought.."
"Ty...I'm dating someone now."
"Oh.."
"And I don't-"
"No...no I get it...it's..it's fine. What's um....what's her name?"
"Debby. She's amazing."
"Okay. Well...I hope that you and Debby are happy together."
"What's up with the major change of attitude??"

·Narrator's POV·

"ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS, JOSH?!"
"Tyler. Calm down."
Tyler sits up and scooches away from Josh. All the way to the other end of the couch.

"THE ONLY REASON....the only reason I told you I was Bisexual is because I LIKE YOU!!!"
"Tyle-" Josh reaches out for Tyler and Tyler instantly pulls back.
"NO! JOSH. DON'T. TOUCH. ME."
"But Tyler.."
"YOU HAD NO PROBLEM WITH BACKING AWAY FROM ME ABOUT A MINUTE AGO. SO WHY DON'T YOU JUST DO IT NOW?!"
Tyler stands up.
"Tyler. SIT BACK DOWN."
"NO. I will NOT. SIT. BACK DOWN.

WHEN DID YOU GUYS EVEN START DATING?"
"That...that week you were in the hospital.."
"So...YOU HAD ENOUGH TIME TO FIND SOMEONE AND START TO LIKE HER WHILE I WAS STUCK IN THE HOSPITAL RECOVERING FROM ALMOST DYING?! DID YOU EVEN COME TO SEE ME?!?!"
"Tyler...I already knew her. But...we wanted to see what it would be like to be more than friends. So she texted me and asked if I wanted to go out. And I said yes. I came and visited you. Alot."
He just stands there. On the other side of the couch from where Josh was standing. He looks at the floor as tears start streaming down his face. And then after a while, Tyler breaks the silence with his shaky voice, still crying.
"I...told you how I felt. And I tried to show you how I felt......Josh...I fell in love with you."
"I-"
Tyler walks to the door and opens it, causing Josh's voice to hault out of fear.
"Tyler...please. You can't.."
"I-I've gotta go..I'll...see you later."
Tyler opens the door as he starts to cry even harder.
He starts running as he slams the door shut.