You and Me

I'm surrounded by your embrace

You know you're my saving grace

You're everything I need and moreIt's written all over your face

*

I got in the car and drove to her apartment as fast as I could. It was not the smartest idea to drive that fast, but I couldn't waste any second.

I had thousands of questions in my head and I blamed myself for her pain, It all was my fault. If I stayed, if I wasn't that stubborn.. if if if..

After a fast car drive I got out of my car and ran to her apartment doors. I stood there for a short period of time, I had a war in my head.. Will she be interested in seeing me?

I never stopped loving her. I never did. It was only my stubbornness standing between us, but now.. there's nothing that could keep us apart.

I knocked once, twice and then I finally heard footsteps, but also a voice I never heard before. I could tell that it belonged to a man. What is he doing there?

My thinking was disturbed by the sound of the door. I was smiling and repeating the sentences in my head that I wanted to tell her. In front of me there was a man holding her by her waist and I could tell that he was.. her lover? She looked really surprised when she saw me. Her smile quickly faded and I could feel the warm tears falling down my checks.

"Amelia.." She was as well near to crying while she was ignoring the questions of that man asking her who I was etc.

"I..I'm sorry I have to go. I'm sorry." I immediately ran down the stairs right to the direction of my car.

"Wait!!!" She was running after me, but thank God I was faster. I couldn't believe that she had already found a replacement.

I could see her from my mirror, but I had no intense to stop the freaking car. I thought that I've been hurt before, but no one's ever left me quite this sore.

I right after I came home I slammed the freaking front door and kicked everything I found. I opened a bottle of Scottish whiskey and a vodka. I drank, I cried, I screamed and then an idea came to my head. I had a feeling that I'm going under, but I knew that I'll might make it out alive.

I took a blade and I don't remember the rest.

*

I woke up to a bright light of the sun and I realised that I was not in my apartment. I was in a hospital. I looked at my arms and I saw stitched everywhere. I was still not totally sober from the night before. I saw my things such as my handbag and phone on a table to my right and to my left I saw Carol. She looked like she had been crying the whole night.

"Amelia.." I closed my eyes and hoped that it was only a freaking dream.

"What the fuck, why are YOU here." I whispered and looked for sure, mad.

"They called me that you're here.. Your neighbour found you, because you left your front door opened.. I.. I'm sorry." She was crying.

"But why are you here?!" I was speaking a lot louder now.

"They found the paper I gave you that day in your hand, so they called me."

"Since when are you here?"

"3 am."

"Oh, I bet your boyfriend misses you." I smiled.

"What are you talking about. Do you realise that you left and I thought that you'll never come back?" She was mad as well now.

"Ohhhh Carol that sounds sooooooooooo familiar!" I grinned. "By the way, you left for a half of A YEAR!! And I didn't run to find someone to fuck."

"Stop that!!"

"Stop what? The truth?!"

I reached out to my bag, grabbed my cigarettes and lightened one.

"You know know you can't smoke in here.."

"Do I look like I fucking care?"

"Okay let's all calm down.." She wiped her tears away. "Did you do this.. because of me?"

"You know, your words, actions or life without you cut deeper than a knife" I closed my eyes. "Now go and enjoy your little boyfriend and forget about me. Thanks for nothing, but actually.. thank you for the stitches."