You and Me

The flames are getting bigger now

Been wondering all night
Trying to take what's lost and broke
And make it right

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I kept my eyes closed, pretended that I didn't know this voice. I kept walking even though I could still hear her voice, I walked out of the ballroom, sat down, lightened a cigarette, inhaled the poison and closed my eyes.

"Amelia.." I didn't have to open my eyes to know that it was her, who was still haunting me. I exhaled the smoke and opened my eyes. She was standing in front of me in a simple black dress, black high heels. Her makeup was on point as well as her blonde hair. Normally my breath would be shaky, but not anymore. Even when her icy-blue eyes looked at me.

"I didn't know that you smoke." She looked around.

"Like you care." I smiled with this mean expression.

"Amelia stop it. Y-" but I interrupted her.

"You what? Care?" I started to laugh. "Don't be silly." I lightened another cigarette.

"You know very much that I care. See, you're too young to und-" I again interrupted her.

"Are you fucking kidding me. This is unbelievable. So you say that I'm too young to understand just because I'm mad? I'm sure fucking mad, you left. You left me without an explanation that would make sense and you knew. Oh you knew that you're fucking going to leave and you still came to me that night."

"Stop!" she covered her face and exhaled, then added: "This was not only hard to you! I thought about you, I very much wanted to contact you, but it was impossible."

"I tried everything to find you." I looked down and exhaled. She sat next to me, she sure was afraid to make any move, but she still decided to touch my hand. My breath was shaky now.

I looked at her. "It doesn't work like this. You just disappear and come back like nothing.." She looked broken. I wanted to comfort her so much but I couldn't. She looked down and bit her lips. "By the way.. one of the students I met recently told me that you're thriving.. I couldn't be more proud. I heard that you have your own apartment and look at you! You look very fine, you know. I couldn't be more pleased." she smiled but I stayed cold, like an autumn night. "Do you hate me, Amelia?"

"Oh how could anyone hate you." We never broke the eye contact.

"Look, there was a reason behind it, why I left." she stopped. "Someone found out about our relationship and the headmaster told me to leave, otherwise I would go to prison and I left, waited till you leave this fucking school." she smiled.

"Why didn't you tell me.." I stayed cold.

"It was too risky.." she looked so sad. "Oh. I bought a bigger apartment here in NYC and I know that you just got yours, but I was thinking wether you would be interested in living together. I think that you wouldn't.. would you?"

"Oh Carol, I don't think so." I smiled, but stayed as cool as the ocean.

"I see.." she looked down.