On the Ledge of Retrograde

Chapter 17 Invincible

Shannon's POV

"Hey, aren't you going to sleep with me?"

I watch as Cammie just turns in her bed and ignores me.

"Cam..." I ask again sweetly. Trying to get her attention.

I here and gruff and she readjusts herself before ignoring me again.

I guess that's not going to work.

"Cammie I'm sorry.... I know I really messed but, I realized tonight that sometimes you loose control, but it just takes another person to tell you what's really important."

"When did you realize that?" She asks monotonously still facing the wall.

"When I got pulled over by a cop for speeding."

I hope by saying that she not show me some remorse or concern, but I get nothing.

We sit in awkward silence for a minute or so before Cam speaks again, "Aren't you going to ask me how my night was Shannon."

I can tell be the venom in her voice that I've made too many mistakes tonight to be on her good side. She finally turns to me and I can see tear tracks down her face.

What am I supposed to say? Anything I do she'll think's an excuse, and she doesn't deserve an excuse from me.

"Cam, I don't want to give you any excuses, because their are none. What I did was so incredibly wrong to you especially. So..."

"Shan stop." She interrupts me and walks to stop right in front of me.

"I don't know how I feel about you right now." She narrows my eyes and study's my face. "At least I don't know what to call all of these feeling, but I do know that I'm hurt at what you did and that's not going to go away in a single night."

"I know Cammie," and I grab both of her hands pulling them to my chest. She pulls them away to go and sit on the bed again.

I start to see her shoulders shake and tears falling form her eyes. I want so desperately to go over there and comfort her, but I know she wouldn't allow it.

"Shannon you're right. I don't know anything." She says quietly. "And it always feels like this constant headache that won't go away, but when I'm with you I don't notice it." She takes a big swallow and continues on. "And when I kissed you, in that parking lot, I felt the best feeling ever just flood my body. I forgot everything that ever happened to me. It was if I could go flying into the air. Then, you left and I lost my magic and the headache came back. I started hyperventilating and passed out in the parking lot."

Oh my god. I can't believe I did that to her. A wave of guilt doesn't just crash over me, it drowns me. I feel a tear sliding down my cheek.

"Luckily Travis was there and they woke me up, but I don't know what would've happened if they weren't. And now, as I sit and talk to you, the headaches back, but the crazy feeling inside of me has returned."

I look at her for a second. From the outside she looks like a broken teenage girl sitting on a bed, just trying to understand life. I know that I look same some nights, but doesn't every single person at one point or another? Knowing her personally though, I also see my beautiful, charismatic, funny and caring best friend sitting on the bed, and I feel so bad for what I did to her. And what I thought about her.

"Shan... Will you just tell me what I feel, because the thought of it is overwhelming me again." She still has tears in her eyes and looks even more wounded now.

Swallowing my fear I go and sit down in front of her on my knees so that we are eye level. "Cam," I say sincerely while taking her hands again. She thankfully doesn't pull them away, "I'm sure there are a hundred different emotions you're feeling right now. For one: anger and resentment towards me, confusion at the world, and life, pity for yourself, and also something else for me."

"It's that crazy, but wonderful feeling. Isn't it?" She takes her bottom lip in her mouth and stares at me.

"And I think you know what it is."

I study her face. Her eyes are glassy and her face is flushed. I know my face is equally as red because I can feel tears running down it at the overwhelming feeling I have for this girl. I think I've know this all along, but just realized it tonight...

"I-I think I might love you." I say and kiss her.

She kisses me back and then pulls away to say, "I love you to, so much Shannon."

I grab her in a hug and she does the same to me. We both begin to almost sob on each other and I keep repeating how sorry I am to and that I love her.

I eventually pick her up and carry her to bed. We sleep entangled all night and for the first time I don't care what anybody thinks of me, because with her I get this crazy feeling that I'm invincible.

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Omg that was so frikkin' fun to write.

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