On the Ledge of Retrograde

Chapter 15 Breakdowns

Cammie's POV

I grab the door to Shannon's car, and thankfully it unlocked, but I'm not prepared for when I open it to see Shannon so broken. She's sobbing with her head and hands on the steering wheel.

"Shan?" I say lightly putting my hand in her back. She flinches at the sudden contact.

I watched turn to me and furrow her eyebrows, "Cammie how'd you get..."

"Hey," I say now rubbing her back and getting on my knees in front of her; now at eye level. "What's wrong?"

"A lot," she's says still crying. I pull her into my arms and out of the car. She grips my tightly and puts her head in my neck, still crying.

"Shan what's wrong, you can tell me?"

She just crys more at that and shakes her head no. I can feel her tears collecting on my shoulder now.

I decide to just stand there for a minute, rubbing her back, until she calms down.

Eventually a pull her away from me, putting my hands on her face, looking into her eyes. "Shan please tell me what's wrong."

"Jackson cheated on me," she trails of into tears again.

Jackson cheated on her! That son of a bitch. If Shannon wasn't with me right now I'm sure I would go up their and kick his ass.

"I'm such a horrible person. So horrible that he cheated on my, because I'm messed up."

I look at Shan again wiping her tears away with my thumb. She looks so defeated and tired. I've never seen this girl look so weak ever. She is always the epitome of confidence. "Shan don't say that about yourself. Nothing is wrong with you, if anything something is wrong with Jackson. You are the most confident, caring, funny, beautiful..."

And that's when I did it.

I wrapped my arms around her neck and kissed her, and she kissed me back.

Hard.

She wrapped her arms around my back and pulled me to her again. She continued to kiss me and I followed her lead. I could feel her tears start to flow against my face so I pulled away.

"Shannon why are you still crying." I could see her face had started to blush and her lips were swollen, but she had the same look in her eyes.

"Because this is why he cheated on me. Because he said I was a Lesbian."

"There's nothing wrong with that." I coo to her like a baby; just wanting her to understand. I need her back.

"WELL YOU WOULDN'T KNOW CAMDEN!" She lashes out.

"What?" I say. I know this is probably just because she's upset, but I can't help there is some truth to her words.

"YOU FORGOT EVERYTHING. HOW DO YOU KNOW WHATS RIGHT FROM WRONG!"

"Shan just calm down." I can tell that she's not paying attention to me.

"AND NOW THAT I'VE KISSED YOU IT JUST PROVED THAT HE WAS RIGHT AND THAT I'M A HORRIBLE PERSON."

"SHAN JUST LISTEN!"

"NO BYE CAMMIE. I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOU AGAIN."

And she does just that. She speeds off in her car and leaves me there alone, in the parking lot.

Hey Cammie just calm yourself down. It's okay, she's just upset she'll want to see you again. But what if she doesn't. Where am I going to live. I can't go out on the street.

I feel my self breathing to heavily and start to see spots in my vision. I start to sway and eventually give in to the concrete that seemed to be beckoning me.

"Cammie?!"

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Sorry it was shorter.

P.S. Who saw Cammie's snapchat last night? 😬😬😬😬