Babydoll |m.e|

Part 18: Not That Lucky

*Matts POV*

I huffed one last breath and a few more times pushing on her chest. When she still didn't react I let out a very loud and long sob. I laid my head on her stomach. Her body was limp and still. My tears became heavier and faster.

Suddenly her stomach began to move and she sat up quickly. She coughed out a lot of water and some mucus. I was beyond shocked. Rebecca ran to her side and clutched her tight in her arms. We both were sobbing our eyes out.

*Alexa's POV*

My breathing was unsteady. My throat felt like I had swallowed broken glass. My entire body felt exhausted, it was like I was the thinnest piece of glass about to break any minute. I looked up at Rebecca who was sobbing her eyes out and was squeezing me to death.

Who could blame her? I basically killed myself.  As soon as I went under, everything was quiet and still. It seemed the only choice was to stay under. It was the most peaceful thing at the time. There was now one yelling, no Matthew, no frantic crying faces, it was all silent. I felt like I had no other option. The moment when I really felt my lowest was when flashbacks of Matt and that blonde making out over and over.

My eyes gazed over to Matthew who was shaking uncontrollably while crying hard. I had never seen him like this. He had scratch marks all over his bare legs, arms, and even neck. I looked at his nails that were now stubby and a little bloody. His beautiful brown eyes met mine. They were bloodshot and puffy. They no longer shined, they were broken, empty. His hair was tangled into a mess some strands sticking to his face due to the sweat and tears. I looked around for "Jessica" but didn't seem to find her.

Matthew got up and started to stumble over to me. I looked back up at Rebecca who was now glaring at him. I pulled away her arms from my body and started to move away. I failed to get up and fell straight back down on the soft golden sand. I looked up at the dark sky as tiny raindrops fell on my face. Rebecca took my hand and helped me up. She wrapped my arm around her neck and used her other arm to hold me stable around my waist. We slowly made our way to the car. I would occasionally trip but Rebecca helped me right back up.

When we reached the car she unlocked it with one hand while the other hand still held me up. I crawled into the backseat and laid down on the leather seats. "I am going to go get your stuff, I'll be right back I promise," Becca said while shutting and locking the doors. My head was spinning and all I wanted to do is cry. I held it in though. Soon I heard the sound of doors unlocking and in came Rebecca with our wet beach bag. "I talked to your mom and your staying with me for a couple days while she is on another trip. It's gonna be okay," she said while looking at me through the mirror. I nodded slightly, I shut my eyes again. When will the pain end? I guess I'm just not that lucky. But then again neither is Matthew, I'm not forgiving this time. Not after this.