Babydoll |m.e|

Part 15: Going Away

•Hey guys I know I usually don't do this but I wanted to give a few songs to listen to while reading this. I left one up there just in case u don't have any.•

My Everything- Ariana Grande

Need You Now- Lady Antebellum

Pray- Justin Bieber

Never Forget You- Zara Larsson

Drowning Shadows- Sam Smith

Unsteady- X Ambassadors

Unconditionally- Katy Perry

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*Spring*

Today was the day that my dad had to go back to the Army. He got to stay with us for a long while which was very nice. My mom seemed calmer when he is here. But all good things come to an end, at least most of the time.

The weather outside matched my mood, cold and rainy. We were all gathered in the living room, waiting for a car to pick up my dad. I was wearing Matts red "Magcon" sweatshirt with black joggers.

I kept clutching on to my dad, not wanting him to go. Hot, salty tears streamed on my cheeks one after another. My tears left marks on his uniform. "Please don't go.." I sobbed into his shoulder. He was trying to hold back the tears, he just nodded slowly and closed his eyes.

My mom has been prepared for this a lot since the first time he left she was pregnant with me. He doesn't get to come home that often but we understand. My mom still is sad but doesn't cry most of the time.

We soon heard a faint sound of a car pulling up in the driveway. I closed my eyes and let out a huff of air. He rubbed my back and kissed my forehead. "Alexa, I love you very much. To remember me I want to give you this.", he pulled out a stunning diamond charm bracelet. Tears streamed faster down my cheeks as he put it on me. I quickly wrapped my arms around his neck. I sucked in, making sure I have memorized his scent. He whispered, "Stay strong my Alexa. Never let that boy, Matthew, hurt you. Stay strong." I sobbed again. He pulled away and had a couple minutes with my mom.

Something in my mind made a promise not only to myself but to my dad. Stay strong. I had to promise myself to not to cut, to not listen to the haters, and block out negative energy.

A knock at the door yanked me back into reality. My dad took a deep breath, put on his cap and answered the door. It was a Marine that was taking him back. My ran over, picked me up and spun me around. He kissed my cheek and my mom. He couldn't hold it back, tears glazed over his bright blue eyes. Then he went out the door without a word. I stood there frozen still. I heard a car engine start up and fell to my knees.

I heard the crunching of rocks which meant they were pulling out. I suddenly got up and ran outside, not bothering to close the door. I saw the black jeep driving away from the house. My feet now took control and ran after the car. My feet were pounding on the gravel, my head was spinning. I heard my mom calling for me but didn't look back or stop. The car sped up as it hit the road and I couldn't catch up. My tired body collapsed to the cold gravel. I didn't even feel the freezing tempature, my body was numbed by the heart ache. I curled up in a ball and cried.

After a couple minutes of a continuing panic attack I felt a pair of arms pick me up. I looked up to see Matthews hurt face looking back. His cheeks and nose were pink from the cold wind. I dug my face in his chest and cried even harder. "Shhhh, don't cry baby girl," he whispered softly in my ear. He bent his head down and left a soft kiss on  my neck.

He took me up stairs to my room and laid me down on my bed. He pulled out the covers, he wrapped them tightly around my body. He kissed my head and turned to leave.

"Matthew," I called. He stopped in his tracks.

"Yes beautiful," he answered walking back over to my bed.

"Stay with me. My moms at work now, I don't want to be alone."

"Of course darling," he said. He took off his shoes and set them by mine. I scooted over, he gave me a small smile. Matthew slipped in next to me and pulled me close to him. One of his arm were tightly around my waist, his other holding my head. Our foreheads were pressed against each other. His minty, hot breath soothed me slowly. My arms were latched to my chest.

We didn't say anything, we let our eyes do the talking. "Alexa Nicole Woods, you are the most beautiful, inspiring, caring, and adorable person I think I've ever met." That was the last thing I heard before we both dozed off in each other's clutch.

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Sup babes. Sorry for the sad, filler chapter but I wanted to at least give you an update. Have any ideas for chapters? Please put them in the comments. Thank you for almost 500 reads it means so much to me! I'll try to update more. Bye babes♡