Please, Stay.

chapter seven//he'll be okay

An: I got a phone yesterday I am the happiest bean (but that doesn't mean I can't write a sad chapter)

josh

It had been a week since it happened. I heard nothing from Tyler's mom. I heard nothing from the hospital, nothing from anyone. It was killing me, I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep, I couldn't think. My parents began to think I was insane, and went i opened up to them, they just shut me out immediately. I sat in my room all day, not being able to bare the pain of going to school, I couldn't imagine what they would say about him.
Tyler, I begged, please, please make it through this. I need you, we all do.

I had thought this so many times, knowing it would do nothing. I needed to find out where he was, so I could visit him as soon as I could.It was causing sometimes physical pain, not knowing where Tyler was, or how he's doing. I decided that tomorrow is when I would call his mom and find out what hospital he's at, and if he's okay, seeing as it was 4 am. I lay staring at my ceiling until the the sun rose, and i went downstairs, pretending to eat breakfast as I didn't want to worry my mom. I proceeded to grab a bowl of fruit loops, and went upstairs to give it to my brother, Jordan. Jordan knew i wasn't eating, but he didn't care. I usually just put the bowl on his desk, but he looked at me and said,
"Josh. you can't keep doing this to yourself, look in the mirror! you're sick. you're so sick and all of us know and none of us know how to help you. Go see your stupid boyfriend, and get some help."
All I could do is stare at him, before I walked out the door and slammed it behind me. I ran to my room, holding back tears. I picked up the phone and dialled his mothers number into it. she picked up after a few short rings.
"Josh? are you okay" the kind voice came through the phone
"I'm-I'm alright Mrs.joseph, I was just wondering if I could maybe, you know, see Tyler? is he doing okay?"
"oh Josh honey, Tyler's in a coma, I'm sorry you didn't know."
At the words, my heart tore into pieces.
"C-could I see him? can anyone see him?"
Tyler's mom was silent for a few seconds before she said that she was seeing Tyler later that day, and she could pick me up if I wanted. i gladly accepted, then rushing to get dressed. I threw on a pair of black jeans and a black hoodie. I stepped outside, not bothering to tell anyone where I was going. not that they would care anyway. Mrs.Joseph pulled up, and i got into her car.
"thank you, so much."
She smiled a small smile, and told me that Tyler talks about me a lot, and I told her the whole internet story and how he didn't really know it was me. she laughed lightly, as we pulled into the hospital parking lot and got out of the car.  We walked into the hospital, and I remembered how depressing they were. once we were directed to the room, I began to feel a pit of worry in my stomach. what if Tyler doesn't make it while we're in the room? I could never forgive myself.  As we neared the room, the nervous feeling was taking over and I began to feel sick. His mom noticed.
"Josh? you'll be okay. trust me, I felt the same way you did when I first saw him. You'll be alright babe."
I sighed and mumbled an uneasy okay.
His mother opened the door slowly, and entered in to the depressing room. I walked in behind her, not knowing if I was really ready to see him. regardless, he was there. He was lying on the small hospital bed, pale faced, lips blue, brown hair still perfect. He looked awful, though. The sight of Tyler laying so helpless made tears well up in my eyes. Tyler's mom had sat on a chair, letting me sit next to Tyler.
"C-can I talk to him? alone?" I asked
she nodded and stepped out.
"Tyler, I don't know if you can hear me, but if you can please listen. I care about
you. so much Tyler, and I want you to know that I want to hold you as you sleep, hold you when you cry, hold you  when you need someone to hold on to. I want to be there for you.but I can't, because you don't know I'm here. and you would probably think it's a prank but it's not. Tyler Robert Joseph, I am in love with you."
I was full on crying now, and I stood up, placing my warm hand on to of Tyler's cold hand. I looked at him again before leaving the room, giving his mom time alone with her son. I mouthed a thank you to her and walked out of the room into the hallway, where I sat crying, until his mother came outside. She held out her hand and helped me stand up, and once I was, she pulled me into a hug
"it'll be okay Josh, we can make it. He'll be okay."

an: damn. 907 words. go me