Nothing's fine I'm torn

9.

9. *a couple days later than the last chapter*

Harry's pov

I looked at my phone again and reread the message that was sent to me and the other three lads.

"I've been a bit of an ass lately, if you'll all meet me at my flat in an hour I'll explain and give you the apology you all deserve"

Louis had sent the group text 50 minutes ago and I was now standing outside his door. The text was a giant surprise and I was nervous as to what was going to happen. I took a deep breath before lifting my hand and knocking on the door.

Shortly after, the door opened to reveal a very tired looking Louis. He looked at me and gave me a small smile, "come on in".

I stood there in shock. This was the first time in a long time that he had talked to me AND he had smiled. Granted it wasn't his usual smile but this was still a major improvement. My heart lurched at the sight.

When I finally got over my initial shock I followed him into the flat. We got to the living room and I saw that the rest of the lads were already there. They looked up at us silently, they were anxious too.

I went and sat down beside Niall while Louis just stood in front of us all.

"Where's liv?" Niall asked nervously. Why would he bring her up now?

"Um she's buying food. Groceries. Didn't like the idea of me not having food in the house" Louis said with a nervous chuckle.

Wait he didn't have food in the house? How long had he been without? Thinking back to his strange behaviour at the restaurant a couple night ago, could Louis have stopped eating properly? No he wouldn't ever. But I couldn't remember the last time I saw him eat something, and the shirt he was wearing, that I've seen him wear loads of times before, seemed way too big on him now.

My eyes started to water. How didn't I catch this.

"I think it would be best if you explained everything now" Liam said with a sad tone. He had put it all together too.

Louis shifted in front of us staring at his feet before letting out a big sigh. He looked up and met our faces and his expression broke my heart. I don't think I've ever seen him this upset.

"I don't know how I can ever make it up to you guys. I'm sorry, I really am. I've been a shit friend lately, more like just a shit person in general" he took a breath. "I don't really know where to start..." He trailed off as he sat on a chair across from us.

"Start with the break up. That's when this all started right? Why did she break up with you?" Liam asked and I was thankful he did because I don't think I could speak right now. My mind was still reeling.

Louis chuckled but it held no emotion "I guess things did start with that but she didn't end things, I did."

I let out a little gasp and he looked at me surprised. He broke up with her? Louis loved Eleanor though, he was the one who was always the most committed in that relationship.

"Why?" Zayn asked. Louis broke eye contact with me and turned to Zayn shrugging his shoulders.

"I didn't love her anymore, stuff happened shortly before that I can't explain right now. But when I broke up with her she turned into a different person, I had never seen her get so mad" Louis shook his head "she yelled viscous things at me and I guess they just stuck" he sighed and rubbed his face.

"Is that why you lost so much weight? She said something didn't she" I asked quietly.

His eyes snapped up and met mine. He looked terrified. He swallowed before answering "um I guess that's how that started." His voice broke.