Nothing's fine I'm torn

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10. Liv's Pov

I watched as Louis led Harry out of the room and a sense of dread filled my heart. I was so proud of him for getting up the courage to tell him, but what if it ended badly.

What if Harry destroyed the rest of him. How was I going to pick up the pieces after?

"hey are you okay?" Liam asked nudging me. I looked away from the doorway and to him seeing a look of concern on his face. I hadn't realised just how long I had been staring after Louis.

"yeah I'm fine" I croaked out, that seemed to reassure no one. "you look terrified" Zayn points out and I guess I was never good at hiding my emotions.

I shrugged and looked down at my hands. To be totally honest, I was scared shitless on what was about to happen just a room away. All I wanted to do was run and check that Louis wasn't in pain, but I couldn't very well tell the boys that.

A bigger hand encased mine and gave it a squeeze. I looked up to see Niall smiling softly "don't worry about them, lets go play ps3 or something" Niall suggested gently, guessing what my thoughts were on.

"Louis has the new fifa right?" Liam asked. "yeah he should" Zayn cheered and they quickly made their way into the living room. Niall didn't let go of my hand when we joined them, also making me sit beside him on the couch. He even offered to sit out the first game.

Liam and Zayn were distracted by the game when niall picked me up and placed me on his lap. He wrapped his arms around me and I lent back into his warm embrace. I let my eyelids shut as I listened to the constant rhythm of his breathing and the random shouts of Liam and Zayn whenever one scored.

"you know what Louis's telling him don't you?" Niall whispered softly into my ear. "yeah" I replied faintly. Niall squeezed me tighter and kissed the side of my head "you're not mad at me anymore" he stated.

"I was never mad, I was scared. I didn't know to react and I ended up just reacting really badly" I sighed "Been so consumed with helping Louis, every moment of my day lately has revolved about helping him in some way" I finished.

"I understand, what's with the sudden change though?" Niall asked "not that I'm complaining" he added with a chuckle.

"Louis told me I was being an idiot" I said bluntly. I smiled as I felt his laugh shake me gently.

"to be fair, I shouldn't have just kissed you like that. Can't say I regret it though" he whispered and I had to smile at that "I don't regret it either" I whispered back.

"oi lovebirds your turn" Zayn said. I opened my eyes to see both him and Liam sporting the biggest grins.

"Ready to get your ass kicked Horan?" I teased sitting up and grabbing the controller from Liam. I looked back at him to see him smirking before saying "you're on"

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ITS ALMOST OVER! I am the worst at updating wow, I'll explain what's happening in my life and why I'm so bad at updating in the next chapter, which should be updated at the same time as this one

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-Liv