Late Nights Lost In City Lights || Angeless

Four

Chris

Ryan really fucked my Angel over. Treat him like a dirty secret then leave him for a girl. Apparently it also had its trauma inducing moments since I woke to him freaking in his sleep. When I finally got him awake he cried himself to sleep on me again. Poor baby has night terrors now.

Today Angel was feeling rather cuddly so we spent a great deal of the morning in bed sleeping or cuddling. I love it whenever I kiss his forehead and he buries his face in chest with a rosy blush. He's adorable. I'm one lucky man.

"Hey we're stepping out to run some errands okay?" Ricky poked his head in them smiled at the scene.

"Okay we'll be here cuddling." Angel burrowed further into my chest and I held him tighter. Ricky shuts the door quietly and I sighed. Angel looks up at me and I smiled at him. "There's my beautiful angel." He blushes and covers his face. I chuckled and kissed his head tenderly. He yawns then pulls the covers up further. "I love you my sleepy little angel."

"I love you too." He smiles and then starts rambling about something in a soft tone so I just listened and held him close. It's a little quirk he does but I love them all. I felt his breathing slow on my neck and smiled.

"Sweet dreams angel."

Angelo

I was awoken to my phone singing a standard ringtone then Chris's starting some song by The Cure but I can't name it cause I'm too tired to function. I blindly grab at my phone in the sheets only to find it on the bedside table so I sighed and grabbed it. I really need more sleep.

"Hullo?" I heard voices and crying on the other end so I got a little concerned. I then realized I never looked at the caller ID so God only knows who this is.

"Angelo?"

"Yes?"

"Hi it's Ryan's mom I saw your name in his phone so I called you on mine. And well *sniffle* he's in the hospital and *incoherent due to sobs* he tried to kill himself last night."

"Mrs. Sitkwoski please can you try to stop crying and repeat that last part. What did he try to do again?" But she's gone into sobbing so I hear shuffling then a man who isn't Mr. Sitkwoski talking.

"Hello this is the doctor and the young man in question is here for attempted suicide. He's doing fine now but I think they want you to come down here."

"Yeah yeah okay I'll be there soon."

"Bye." He hangs up but I still held it to my ear just stunned. Ryan tried to kill himself? I hope it wasn't over me cause I'm not good enough to kill oneself over. I looked at the time and it's about 4:30 in the afternoon and Chris is still sleeping next to me. "Chris wake up!" I shook him then hit him with a pillow. "CHRIS!"

"I'm up I'm up." He shoots up and rubs his eyes. Aww he's adorable when he's just woken up. Bigger fish to fry Angelo. Right. I pulled my hair up in a girly messy bun that I do often and pulled on some shoes and jacket.

"Great we're going to the hospital and don't try to stop me cause it's Ryan. He tried to kill himself last night." Chris grabs my arm and pulls me into a hug.

"I won't stop you I still keep in touch with my exs so I understand."

"Alright let's go." I rushed out and Chris drove us to the hospital cause I'm too stressed and preoccupied to drive. Ryan......why'd you do it man? What's so terrible you couldn't live with it cause I'm living with all the beatings and abuse I got from your drunk ass do you see me offing myself? No you don't......or at least you didn't cause mine was slowly but surely gonna kill me and I'm not proud of it. I rubbed my thighs thinking of all the scars covering them.

I'm still your friend Ryan. You can't fuck that up no matter how hard you try. You can't shake me we're like brothers we always have been. Maybe that's why the relationship didn't work. Well that and the secrecy, the abuse, the cheating but no matter.