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Point of View: noah 

[So they dug your grave

And the masquerade

Will come calling out

At the mess you've made

 Don't wanna let you down

 But I am hell bound] {Demons, Imagine Dragons} 

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{November 2nd}

Dear Whoever:

One of my friends made the unfortunate decision of finding a quote they thought pertained to me and showed it to me. I'm not sure we're friends anymore. (kidding. sort of)

Here's the quote by another moron:

"Move on. It is just a chapter in the past, but don't close the book- just turn the page.

- Unknown"

Oh, wow. Thank you so much Unknown! I had no idea that's what I was supposed to do! Everything is SO clear now! I had no idea it was that easy! I must be a moron!

*laughs uncontrollably and falls over*

Seriously, Unknown? Now, I know why there's no name on it. I wouldn't want my name on that piece of crap. You do realize that you've just quoted someone for saying, "Move on" right? Like, what???

The fact of the matter is, we can't move on. The chapters of the past color our future. If Katniss had never gone into The Hunger Games, she never would have started the rebellion. If Tris hadn't jumped first, Tobias might not have noticed her. He would have left Dauntless, and the other books might not exist. 

Where is the line drawn between moving on and forgetting? I don't want to forget. I want to move on from being sad, but I don't want to move on from the memories I hold. 

I want to remember everything. I want to remember all the good memories and all the bad. Because they shape my future. They determine the rest of the book.

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I'm packing lunches for the kids when some radio talk show host comes on and starts talking about my mom dying and some crap. I go to turn it off, because honestly I don't want to listen to it, but then he says something that catches my attention and my hand freezes on the dial.

He starts talking about my dad's recent drug addiction, which is weird. It's old news, where the news is concerned. My dad got addicted to heroin after my mom died, which is true. But after he got thrown into jail, I really thought he was straightening up. Of course, I wouldn't really know, because that was when Josiah and I got taken away.

My neighbors called the police because they thought something fishy was going on over at our house. When they showed up, they took Josiah and I, and found my dad was high. They threw him in jail for two days, and dropped Josiah and I off at this group home.

That was the last I heard from my dad.

So why are they talking about it now? It was two months ago that this happened, so why now?: