I Met The Love Of My Life | a.a

I missed you

I saw you talking with my headteacher. All I wanted to do was to run to you and hug you. I missed you so much. But I thought that if I went to you, I'd give you hope that everything's gonna be ok. I didn't want to hurt you so I decided to avoid you. I went to the park just to be alone and think. Then I felt your perfumes. I was sure it was you. Hypnotic Poison costs a lot and I've never met somebody who was using these perfumes.
Then I told her about everything that happened later. I thought she'd be angry with me. She didn't say a word at first. She was just starring at me.
Are you angry? I asked anxiously.
No, I'm not, sweetheart. It's not your fault. You could make a mistake. I mean, everyone makes mistakes. She said and touched my cheek.
I got up and said that I need to take a shower. I left her alone and went to the bathroom.
When I was taking off my blouse, I felt pain and saw some blood. It didn't surprize me (I'm not going to explain it right now, you'll see what'll happen next 😙).
I washed myself and got dressed. I tried to hide scars and bleeding places on my hands under my clothes. I brushed my hair and came back to her. I sat down and smiled. It was fake and I hoped that she didn't even realized. But she actually did.
You are sad, aren't you, honey? She said and hugged me.
I'm not. Don't worry, Delly. I said and smiled. It was fake again.
I want to know what's going on, Alice. She said and looked into my eyes.
It's just you. I said.
There's everything about me, right? She said and we both laughed.
I missed you. It's like a huge hole in my heart. But in some way I'm glad. The pain was my only reminder that it was all real. That you were. My eyes got wet while saying it.
When you left, you took everything with you. Adele said. The absence of you was everywhere I looked. I've been waiting for you for so long. I watched my phone waiting for a phone call from you that I knew I'd never get. I wanted to see you, hug you and say that I'm sorry for everything that I've done. I was hoping and hoping that you'd talk to me after school. I was going there everyday to be close to you. I fuckin missed you. I thought you missed me too. But finally I realized that you didn't miss me at all. You were trying to avoid me. I understood that I was definitely not who you wanted and that I never meant that much to you... She kept talking. She was talking for like five minutes without any break. My eyes got wet and then I started crying. I was crying my eyes out so was she.
I missed you for all the time. I missed out talks, jokes, huggs, even tears and kisses. I kept repeating in my head things that you were saying to me before I left you. It was painful for me as well. But I'm happy to be with you again. I said and she hugged me tightly. I hugged back even tightier. I was about to get up and go to drink something but suddenly she grabbed my hand. I groaned in pain.
Oh my God, did I hurt you? She asked.
Then she saw some blood on my hand. She rolled up the sleeve of my blouse. I was too ashamed to say something. And she was just speechless and shocked as well.
What have you done? Why did you hurt yourself? She finally asked.
It helped me to deal with that I missed you. It was painful that we weren't talking and it just... it just happened and I couldn't fight it. I'm sorry.
She touched my cheek and kissed my forehead.
It's going to be ok, darling. I'm sorry for everything what I've done.
You shouldn't be sorry. You've done nothing wrong. I'm the bad one. I left you with no goodbye. I said.
There was no need to say something more than that.
I knew everything was going to be fine as long as I was close to her.
I went to wash blood from my hands and came back to her. I laid my head on her shoulder and I even don't know when we fell asleep on the sofa. I think we were just too tired to go to our bedrooms.

I managed to update it today but it's shitty as hell... 😔 Tell me guys what do you think about this chapter?
Always yours,
Alice xoxo