There's no point dating in high school .
High school is where love comes to hang itself.
Not even that;
Love is an addict
To everything.
Love consumes all of whatever as a way of assured- yet totally worth it- self destruction.
I'm ranting because I loved her.
I loved her;
Told her she was beautiful.
I said it didn't matter what she did or said, I loved her.
I worshipped her.
Protected her.
Longed for her.
I LOVED her.
And I'm still supposed to because I said I would forever.
My mind told me I would forever,
But today, a frightening hatred consumes me when I think about her.
I can't believe I loved her.
Well, yes I can, but I hate that I did.
And because I did, I hate that I stopped.
I hate that I lied,
To her.
To myself.
To my mom who never liked her.
To my friends who never trusted her.
I hate.
When I think of her, I am devoured by anger, sadness, regret.
But even worse is the after effect of those feelings.
I'm filled with hate at myself for hating her.
Regret for regretting.
Sadness for sadness.
And so much self-pity.
So much that it disgusts both my past and future selves.
There is no point in loving another person, because you can say you'll love them forever
But then in just 7 months want to carve them out of your...
Everything.
And then, even a year later, you'll think of how you wasted your... everything.
And about how you lied
To everyone you thought you loved.
YOU ARE READING
The Book of Poetry in the Back of My Cabinet
PoetryJust a bunch a poems... let's see where this goes. You should read them though, if you like poetry. They're pretty cool. Yes... I write poetry because I'm too lazy to write full stories.
