Phan Drabbles

Goodbye

"Phil's beautiful skin was milky and smooth. It was like the moonlight spilling in from the windows at the dead of night. The lovely white of his complexion perfectly contrasted with the pitch black of his silky hair. My skin tone is rubbish compared to his but when they were put together nothing was more beautiful.

Phil's fingers were strong but gentle. They were long, slender, and fit with mine so well it was like his hands were made to hold mine. They gave me goosebumps as he ran them across the small of my back. A smile always crept up onto my face when his thumb caressed my cheek softly as he kissed me.

Phil's eyes were like two magnificent seas. I would get lost in them every chance I got. They were a pale aqua sea with subtle yellow and foam green constellations reflecting off the water. They were big and innocent until just the right moment. When I looked into those orbs of his no one else existed.

Phil's embrace was the best part. He held me protectively, like nothing was ever gonna hurt me as long as he was around. He held me like I was his everything just like he was mine. I slept amazingly when he was next to me, holding me close like he'd never let go. Now, I can't sleep because the bed feels so cold.

Phil's laugh was joyous and adorably his tongue poked out every time. His smile was bright like the summer. His love for animals and plants was childlike yet very endearing. The way his hands moved when he'd explain things made me smile.

Phil was the best boyfriend anyone could ever ask for. I wanted to grow old with Phil. We talked about getting married, having kids, a house to call our own, and a dog with a cute name. But, we can never have that. I will never love anyone like I love him. I will forever be deeply and irreversibly in love with him but not in a million years would I change that.

Phil will be dearly missed and I hope you all can remember him as the sweet caring man I know he was. Instead of mourning his loss with tears down our faces, we need to smile at all the good memories we hold closely to our hearts. I know he would rather you remember the good things and be happy rather than cry because he is gone. Goodbye Philip Michael Lester, I love you so much." Dan ended the eulogy and went back to his seat with a smile on his face remembering how lovely Phil really was.

(a/n) I didn't know I could write something like this. Are you sad angel beans now? I'm sorry.