Dealing With Anxiety and Staying Strong

My Parents Finally Split Up

After a few weeks of my dad leaving all night, my mom got fed up, and she kicked him out the house. It was weird knowing that my parents finally split up. After all these years of us living together, they finally parted ways for good, and it was strange.

In the beginning my mom constantly asked to see my dads Facebook, and when I told her no she would just call me ungrateful. If my mom didn't get her way, she got moody towards everyone. My mom has always been impatient, and it wasn't good at times.

My dad stopped giving her money, and they eventually had to go to court for it. Even after court my mom would still complain to me about every little thing, and I always kept telling her I don't want to be in the middle and that I don't want to get involved, but she didn't care.

For months I still felt trapped because I felt like I was constantly getting involved in my parents arguments. I felt like I had to be careful on what to say because I didn't want to say the wrong thing and feeling on edge didn't help anything.

I felt like I couldn't control my anxiety. My anxiety was constantly high and my stress levels were through the roof. I started to feel like I was losing all control, and I couldn't process what to do. I constantly felt like I had to be on edge, and I started to constantly worry, and I still kept pushing my emotions to the side.

The first few weeks were hard for me and my family. My little brother couldn't really process what was happening, so my sister and I tried our best to play board games with him to keep his mind off of it. My sister and I felt like we were stuck in the middle sometimes because we wanted to be there for both our parents. I felt really stressed. I started breaking out more which caused me even more stress. No matter what was going on in my life I felt like I couldn't escape the stress.

I took all this stress out on Nate. I couldn't control my emotions any longer, and I started to blow up in everyone's face. I wouldn't just deal with my emotions because I was trying to make everyone happy but myself. It started to get really hard, and I started to feel alone. Nate and I were arguing more, and my family still was a mess, and everything was just starting to collapse on me. I felt like my world was soon going to fall apart.