At Night Sometimes

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by bookbabere

by bookbabere

At night
Sometimes
I'd like to think
You'd stay next to me
And hold me tight
And say 'I love you'
And wish me goodnight

But you never were
And never will
Please stop acting like this is love
Please while I can let go still
Stop trying to give me some doves
And say you were
When in reality
You never were
And never will
We're through
And I need time
Time to accept it
To stop and think
And maybe sit

All those nights
Where I imagined
You holding my hand
And holding it tight
While talking about
Things that I couldn't get right
You were my main reason for no sleep
And still to no avail
I haven't slept a wink tonight
I'm still losing sleep
Everyday
Of these past weeks
That turned to months

At night sometimes
I imagine you sleeping next to me
Or when you're home
Wish you'd think of me
Not leave my thoughts be
I've gotten over you
I don't think about you
Not like that
I now moved on
But I can't get your memory out
Of my head

I feel like you should be here
As a brother
For when I don't speak to my mother
Because we all know
Where's my father

Yet you're just like him
You've left me
Hurt but recovering
With memories
Everlasting
Forgive me first love
But you're still
Inside my head like you're stuck like a glove
I'm too tired
And so are you

We need to get away
But don't know how
You've waited for hours
That I wished turned into years
But we both know
That you'll never be here
To listen
Or to hear

At night sometimes
I think
I need to find
Someone new
That's not very close
Close like you
Forgive me love
But I can't take this anymore

I fell for you
That's true
But I've gotten up
I needed to grow up
And find passion
Somewhere else
I feel like I've woken from a concussion
Even though I didn't hit my head, God bless

At night sometimes
I cry myself to sleep
I'd like to think you can comfort me
But you're never there
I feel like the monsters
They stare
That black hole
Is back in my heart
It's taking me whole
And breaking me apart
I don't know how much torture
I can take
But I know it's less
Than what I make
I lose sleep thinking
When I need help
Maybe then
I can get some pills
And go back to having my beauty sleep.

At night sometimes
I feel like it's an eternity
I cry
I pray
But I still can't sleep
Please
Someone
Get me to the palace
So I can be judged
And taken to the depths of hell
At least Hades' thoughts
Will be more clear.