bittersweet

I Needed You

(looking back, I realize how pathetic and clingy i sounded in the beginning and i now learn that i don't need a person for my life to be happy. this was written during a time where i was freshly trying to get out of liking someone, and i guess, i don't know, i just... i just really feel like i should tell people this, especially people who are younger so that they'll be okay with themselves. You Do NOT need a person for YOU to be hAPPY. You can make YOURSELVES happy. Do not depend on others for happiness, because it's so fickle, that once they may leave, everything will crash down again. So be confident and happy with yourself, because you are the only person that matters at the end of the day looking in the mirror. Love you guys.)

I needed you,

But you never came,
After that,
I went insane.

I needed you,
That's all I can say,
But you never came,
You stayed away,
And you went away.

I needed you,
Then you went away,
I needed you,
But you just strayed,
I needed you,
Oh,
I needed you,
But you didn't stay,
You didn't help,
You didn't save me,
Like you said you always will do.

I needed you,
But you never came,
I died that night,
And cried myself,
Till I went out,
Like a light.

I needed you,
But my soul is now gone,
I needed you,
But I don't even see you,
So I became hurt,
Sad,
Dead,
Even though,
My body functioned,
My soul died,
A thousand and one times.

I needed you,
But I grew strong,
I don't need you,
Not anymore,
Because now,
I see,
The world isn't perfect,
You're not perfect,
You're not for me,
You don't love me,
The way you said you would.

I needed you,
But not anymore,
I realized something,
I didn't need you,
I needed myself,
And now,
You are nothing to me,
Nothing,
After all these years,
Of rage,
Hate,
Sadness,
Sorrow,
I finally got rid of the bile in my throat,
With soap,
And now I'm a clean crow,
I don't need you,
Because I needed myself,
I grew up,
And found myself,
Became tough,
And outgrown myself.

I needed you,
But not anymore,
Because you just walked out the door,
And I was left behind,
But now I crawled out,
And renewed my mind,
I think of you sometimes,
Yes, I do admit,
But not so much,
Just a bit,
For now I've grown,
To be a woman,
Who you might not even know,
And now,
I found someone else,
I needed him,
As much as he needed me,
And we stay together in mostly,
Harmony,
And now,
You're erased from my mind,
Almost gone,
And now,
As we go on,
I see you again.

I don't need you,
And I'm proud to say it,
And I don't want you,
I forgave and forgot,
And now,
I've got,
Something better,
Than you would have ever been.