Breaking Up Mavin

Chapter 11 - Realisation

Chapter 11 - Realisation.

I sat in the corner of the dining hall, on my own. I opened the little box and say 2 tiny bits of paper and a bit of tracing paper. I opened one of the bits of paper as I realised it was the speech that she was going to give me. I started to read it

"Casey, so you know I'm really bad with apologies so don't expect it to be awesome! Im writing this to say that I'm sorry. I had no right to say that Gavin was ruining you or to accuse you of ruining my Cosplay outfit. I figured out that it was Luna... Long story... She was jelly... Shit like that! So this is to say that I'm sorry and that you will always be my sister no matter what! Lovayouuu! Lottie!"

I finished reading it and felt a tear roll down my cheek. I wiped it away and read the the message. The handwriting wasn't as neat so she must of wrote it earlier this evening. I read this one more carefully

"I'm not gonna put the whole 'if your reading this I'm dead' thing because it's bullshit! I'm not one to swear but it is! Remember when we were talking about what tattoos we would get in out lifetime and we said that we got each other names tattooed on to our wrist. Well I did. But it wasn't on my wrist. It was on my arm. When you see me. Pull back my sleeve and read it. You always said that you would get a drawing of a frozen Rose on your left shoulder because your first daughter was going to be called Alaska-Rose, well on the flight here... I got bored... Hope you like it! Love you! Charlotte! Your girl! P.s Manamana do do dododo!"

I folded it back up and put it back into the box. I opened the final by of paper and just seeing it, made

me break. It was a drawing of a frozen rose and written around it was two words "Alaska-Rose"

I couldn't take it. I put the paper on the table and went to turn around. But I ended up falling off my chair and hitting my head on the floor. I kept my forehead on the floor and forced my eyes shut. I felt tears running down the side of my face. I brought my hands up to hair and grabbed a handful of it. I wanted pain. I wanted to join her but i promised Millie and no matter who it is, I never break my promises. I screamed into the flood and felt a pair of arm wrap around me and try to lift me off the floor. I just shoved them away. It was Geoff that had come over to me but i didn't care. I just wanted my girl to be here. I wanted to hear her childish laughter, her weird comments and be apart of her fucked up life but I can't because she's gone.

"Aunty Casey!" Millie shouted out to be but I heard Gavin tell her to give me some space. Geoff tries to convince me to stand up but I don't. I feel numb. I just want to break. I want to lash out at the world. I- I- I want Charlotte!

Geoff stands up and walks over to Gavin who walks over to me. I look up, my eyes sore and puffy, my voice dry and a whisper and my body feels like paper. I saw Gavin's face. His eyes were red and bloodshot, he sat on the floor next to me and pulled me into a hug. I buried my head into his neck and cried. We sat like that for a while before someone came into the hall and asked for me. I pulled away from Gavin; with his help, I stood up.

"T-that's me!"

The woman guided me to outside her room and asked if I wanted to see her. I gently nodded and said that I wanted to be alone. I walked into the room and sat at the side of re bed. I grabbed her left arm which she had turned so that her wrist was facing up. I gently pulled back her sleeve and saw 3 words tattooed into her arm.

"Casey Marie Roberts"

I smiled

"You bitch!" I said, forcing myself to chuckle. I said in there in total silence before I started to sing Lullaby by Nickleback.

"I know the feeling, of finding yourself stuck out on the ledge,

And there ain't to healing, from cutting yourself with the jagged edge,