I'm Sorry Brendon || Rydon

3/22/11

I don't know what to say right now. I just, felt like I needed to talk to you. Casey and I broke up. She said I was still obsessing over some dead dude who didn't even matter anymore, so I told her to leave. I found a picture of us. The whole band.... In Spencer's garage. We looked like we were having fun. What happened? When we started playing, it was fun. We laughed, and joked around. Now you're dead. You're gone. Please just wake me up. This can't be real... Who am I kidding? I was at the funeral. When they put you in the ground, I honestly thought about making them bury me with you. I think
things are starting to get better though. Maybe just a little bit. I love you Brendon. Again, this is the part where you'd hit me. I saw that girl Sarah, that you always liked so much, at the store. You told everyone you were gonna marry her someday and we'd all laugh at you. I stopped and talked to her for a while. She missed you Bren. I miss you. We all do. She actually liked you. I think she liked you about as much as I did, but now she seems to be over it. I should be too. It's been months. I just can't get you out of my head. I still don't believe it. Dammit please wake me up! Please! Someone wake me up! I can't do this...

-love Ry