30 Reasons Why I Love You

Chapter 19: Reason #12

Reason #12: After marrying you, dying is the last thing on my to-do list 

"You've gotten far more beautiful since I last saw you." He traced a finger from my chest to the top of my scar from giving birth. "The only flaw would be this hideous line." He smoothed his hand over the healing skin, his face sporting a frown.

"Don't touch me, you motherfucker!" I hissed out, my body tensing at the vile words. This couldn't be happening. Not again. Please, don't let me go through that again. 

Rei. 

"Who are you thinking about?" Kaoru asked, his face hardening. "You can't possibly be thinking about that jerk you call a husband?" Standing up, he headed for the window to check the outside again. It was still dark, the stars still dotting the night. It would have been a beautiful day to go star-gazing if I wasn't strapped naked to a bed with a psychotic watching me.

"You see, Jin. The day you received the video message I made for you was the same day I killed your original bodyguard. He was already commissioned to protect you and I saw that as a great opportunity to get close to you." He faced me, leaning on the windowsill. "I followed him home, killed him and remodeled my beautiful face to his. It wasn't that hard, really. He didn't even put up a fight, just upped and begged for his life when I had the gun in his mouth." He sighed, in disappointment perhaps, I don't know.

"I was so disappointed that I didn't finish my count to ten and just shot him there. I think I was at two when he pulled that shit. I can't believe that the same guy who tracked us down five years ago didn't even think that the bodyguard was a fake."  He clicked his tongue loud before walking over to the bed, my eyes glaring invisible holes in his body.

"Now, I'll just get the babies from the other bastard and we can live a new life. just you, me and the kids. Sound good?" I spat on his face as an answer, hissing while he kept his sugary sweet smile.

"Don't think I was the same person five years ago! You won't get away with this!" A breath escaped my lips. "Rei will make sure our babies will be far from your reach! Why do you think we had Aki take care of them?" 

I trust Rei, I know he chose Aki for a reason. I know he wouldn't choose Aki just because they were friends. Those were his kids, he wouldn't put them in harm's way. I know that for sure.

"What?" Kaoru muttered before bursting out in laughter, his cheeks reddening as if I had told him the funniest joke he had ever heard. He couldn't have gotten crazier in just a matter of minutes. I saw him bring a finger to his face where my spit was still plastered his face. Once he calmed down, a finger swiped the intruding liquid before sucking the digit. 

"You're digusting."

"And you're delicious. I haven't had a taste of you for five years. You think an empty threat like that is going to help?" Stunned, I felt my breathing shallow as he backed away. "You see, baby. Once I get those Godforsaken kids, I'll slice their throats in front of you. Just to teach you to never cheat on me again. Then, I'll make sweet love to your gorgeous body. I'll make sure not to wear a condom, not like last time you were here."

I winced when I felt his erection digging my hip as he straddled me. "I regretted doing safe sex with you every time. Because of that stupid decision, you didn't end up with mini me's. That's why, I've changed my tactics. And in a few months, you'll be carrying my precious little angels."

My body wildly thrashed around, trying to push him off me. He said he was going to impregnate me after he kills my own children in front of me. My babies. No. No.

"No!" I yelled at the top of my lungs, continuing my wild thrusting.

Slap! 

I craned my neck back to its original place, my body calming immediately down. The fear, the same emotions from five years ago came rushing back. I felt the compelling desire to just obey, follow as I was told.

I can't believe this. I can't believe this. I just can't.

Sprouting nonsense like how I wasn't the same person five years ago then breaking down just from one powerful slap. How pathetic.

"Darling, don't make me hit you again. Not until I plan on making you pregnant again. Right now, I need to save you until that special night arrives. This body will once again bear my mark. Who knows, I might carve you the same tattoo I have on my body." Raising his shirt, the grotesque scars came into view. The scars forming letter and the letters forming words, words that were drilled into my very being a long time ago.

"Like it?" He glided his hand over his torso, tracing some letters with his fingers. "It was painful at first. But, it was worth it. I just wanted to show you how much you meant to me." He then removed his hand and caressed my cheek before getting off me. I had controlled my breathing, my lips trembling at the sight I witnessed.

"Now, I've got to fix this little guy right here." He pointed a proud finger to his bulging crotch. "I'd ask you to fix it but I'm saving my dessert for last, know what I mean."

He left the room by the only door I could find. I'm guessing this cabin has the same stuff like the last one. I sighed, releasing a breath of despair. No, despair is just the tip of the iceberg. If I had a deeper word, I'd have supplied it.

Looks like I'll be returning to my nightmares again. Nights of insomnia, fear of trusting another human being. Will I become a shell again?

No, I will not. I didn't know a happiness like this five years ago. That's why, defeat is not an option. This time I won't fall back. I'll kill this motherfucker myself before I burn his cursed corpse along with this goddamned cabin. And this will be the last I see of this fucker!