30 Reasons Why I Love You

Chapter 29: Reason #2

Reason #2: Time always stands still when I'm with you 

I spent two days in the hospital. Mostly because I had to undergo therapy or something. In other words, it was just a way to wash the shock out of my system. Killing a human being is heavy on the conscience and it's a curse I was willing to bear.

"Okay, so we'll leave in four days. Make sure we got everything, Jin. I don't want to spend money on buying stuff we already have. That's just bad living." Rei smirked at me as he played with Shun.

"Yeah, yeah. As long as you help me so I won't shoulder all the blame, Rei." I replied, patting Shin on the back to make him burp.

After the whole hellish encounter, we decided to go on a family trip to Fiji. It's small country northeast of New Zealand. An ideal distance from where we are and it would help with my recovery, as my therapist says.

Funny how the same man who helped me get through the shock of being kidnapped ended up being my therapist again. I thought he'd have died since he was on old man. A very old but kind man. Thanks to him, I might just stash all my memories away.

"Oh and you know what?" I blinked at Rei, startled at his attempt to resume our conversation.

"What?"

"The part I'm looking forward to in Fiji would be the part where I'll be making sweet love to you under a starry night, by the beach."

I snapped my head to Rei, finding his eyes wandering up and down my body. His hot stare setting me on fire, blood rushing to my groin. 

"Rei, you pervert. Don't say stuff like that around the kids. I don't want you corrupting them with your stupidity."

I looked down at him, a smirk playing on my lips when I noticed his playful pout. We both laughed at that before I leant forward to peck Shin on the cheeks, Rei watching us lovingly.

Ever since I returned, Rei hadn't touched me. I won't lie and say I was disappointed that he didn't try anything. Truthfully,I felt relieved. I didn't feel ready yet. All those words of anticipation I thought of when I was at the cabin just flew away in a matter of seconds.

I didn't need sex. Not yet. I even divulged that information to my therapist, thinking he'd find me disgusting to say anything about my sexual desires. To my surprise, he didn't look bothered the slightest bit. It was like he expected me to say that much about myself. Or, after years of practice, he's heard nastier shit out there.

Maybe. 

"What? Is it so wrong to fantasize an activity where I'd devour my husband in the most romantic setup ever?"

The bed moved as Rei crawled to where Shin and I were playing. Half of my attention focusing on his moving form in the corner of my eyes while the other half entertained Shin.

I held the book in front of Shin, reading a few words while leading his tiny hand to the different surfaces of the book. The book was educational and fun, bookstores advertising it as the best book out there. It was a popular children's book and I could see why.

 It was cute watching his different expressions. Shin would giggle when he touched something soft and fluffy while he whimpered when it was a rough surface. 

"Shun, let's listen to mommy read a book, huh. It looks fun, just look at Shin." 

Slowly, I heard another voice cooing as Shun made his way to my lap, next to his brother. Lifting my arms, I led him inside my arms; surrounding them once they had made themselves comfortable. Rei crawled behind me and positioned himself there, his head resting on my shoulder as he watched the kids touch the book.

Once in a while, he'd kiss and nibble my neck. I even felt a small lick in there somewhere but I was too engrossed with the twins that he'd have to settle with no attention at all. He chuckled lowly, his chest rumbling as he rested on my back.

We spent the whole day in the room. Playing with the twins, reading to them, feeding them and changing diapers.

We even took a bubble bath together. It was Rei who suggested it and considering the tub was big enough to accomodate the four of us, I went along with him. It seemed like a fun idea and it was. Shun was rowdy even before we went in the water. He would struggle to get out from my arms and crawl all over the bathroom floor.

When we had everything ready, toys and such, Rei immediately brought Shun inside. While I had the quiet Shin, he wasn't behaved as well. When we entered, Shin started smothering the foam all over his tiny form. 

"Someone's a little too happy with the bubbles, huh." Rei joked while I kept my attention to the playing twins. 

"Yeah, well. Someone's going to drown if his daddy doesn't watch him properly." 

Rei looked down quickly, finding Shun dunking his head in the water repeatedly. I laughed when I heard Rei's light scolding. Shun huffing indignantly before repeating his actions. Everything was adorable.

But, most of all, it was comforting.

"Rei, I told you to pack Shun's Mr. Piggy. I packed Shin's Mr. Turtle so hurry it up."

"What? Do we need to bring those toys with us? Aren't they too old for them?" Rei scoffed, walking  to Shun's crib to grab the pink pig.

"Yeah, Rei. They're practically one. They don't need toys to hug." I drawled out sarcastically, irritated at the fact that Rei didn't want to pack Shun's toy so he had space for his own toys. "Just pack the pig already before I leave your prized goggles behind."

He stiffened at that threat, cringing at the thought. Yeah, he didn't seem to want to leave his limited edition Turbo goggles. He said it cost a fortune, one year's worth of part time salary set aside to buy the stupid thing.

"Oh, Jin. I already got a month's worth of clothes for the kids, is that enough?" He raised a pair of blue jammies in his left hand and a pair of green jammies in his right hand.

I looked up, placing my hand on my hip as I studied him then our luggage. Rei took a month's leave from school and we were staying in Fiji for three weeks. So, yeah. The clothes are enough, I guess.

"Yeah, that's good. You got Mr. Piggy?" I asked as I zipped the last suitcase with a grin. He muttered a string of curses before I heard clothes shuffling then he zipped his last suitcase.

"Just did. Damn. Why are you a great parent and I'm not?"

"Because I know that my kids aren't old enough to outgrow stuffed toys. That's why." Turning around to face him, I felt a pair of arms wrap around my waist. His gorgeous face coming on to my line of vision. His soft, blonde hair tickling my forehead as he leant down, giving me a peck on the lips. Breathtaking blue eyes watching me in wonder. 

"You tease. I swear, when we come back, you won't be able to walk properly for a month." I laughed at him, holding his face with my hands. 

He left a trail of kisses from my lips to my ear then hummed softly. I closed my eyes in a relaxed manner, revelling in his warmth before he whispered something that made me snap my eyes open.

I pinched his back and he retreated, still not letting me go even as he laughed. My cheeks warming and I was sure they were red as tomatoes. Pushing him off, I made my way out of the room, a laughing Rei in tow.

My mind replaying his words:

Or maybe you'll be carrying a mini 'you' soon.