30 Reasons Why I Love You

Chapter 24: Reason #7

Reason #7: You reel me in when I do something stupid, that's why I'm not afraid of making mistakes 

If someone told me that I'd be standing in the same room with a sleeping Kaoru while holding a swiss knife and wearing nothing but a  skirt at the same time, I would have laughed in his face before punching him in the gut.

But now, standing in that same moment, I don't think I could really kill a person. No matter how sick and demented that said person is.

But this isn't just another person. It's Kaoru. 

I felt my face twist into a scowl, the rage rushing back in. The momentary fear morphing itself to deadly anger. Now that, I think about it. I do deserve to kill the man who tormented me. Even if it was just two weeks. 

Gripping the blade tightly in my right hand, I slowly stood up. The skirt slightly swaying from the momentum, my body tensing because of two things: fear of getting caught and the desire to kill.

I could almost feel the red liquid sliding down the blade. The feeling of triumph and relief, knowing that the person that has been threatening to destroy my happy family is dead. 

A shiver ran up my spine, a tingle that pushed a small smile on my lips. My tongue peeking out to moisten my chapped lips before quickly withdrawing once it tasted the residue of Kaoru's nasty spunk.

When I get home, I'll have to visit my dentist to have my mouth cleaned. Who knows where his stick has been? 

The face wiped from my lips, sweat trickling down my forehead as I slowly and quietly made my way to Kaoru. My left hand blindly gripping my surroundings while I glided through the large room. There wasn't much in the room, I concluded after moving around for a bit. I had to make sure what the area's outline was, a contingent forming in my head if I failed with my first attempt.

Soft snores circled the room, occasional grunts escaped Kaoru's lips. With every sound, my body would stiffen while my breathing hitched. It was frightening if I thought about it later. Just one mistake could mean success or failure. And, personally, I was rooting for the former.

"Jin."

Every muscle of my body braced, my right hand raising itself to my chest when I heard my name. I could practically see my heart wildly hammering in my rib cage. It felt like it wanted to beat its cage until it broke free. 

Not a good idea, heart. Calm down. 

My eyes straining in the dark to watch for movements. It didn't help that the illumination was the dim lights from the narrow hallway. And from where I'm standing, there was not much light. 

I stood still, alert and anxious as I waited for something. Anything. But, nothing happened. No sound aside from the insistent snores. A breath of relief pushed out of my lips, my body relaxing a bit as I resumed my way.

Sticking to the walls of the room, I continued my blind groping. I cursed at the fact I didn't train this sense of mine. Apparently, how was I supposed to know I'd come to a stage where I'd be heavily relying on them. Even if Rei told me I was sensitive, outside the context of sex, of course, it was hard to imagine what the room really had.

So far, I knew that the room had a couch, obviously. Where else would that monster sleep? In a den or evil lair? Yeah, right. Wait. I'm getting sidetracked. Where was I? Oh, yeah.

There's a couch in here. Then, a switch by the door I presume as my escape to this shit hole. The escape door, by the way, was across the room from where I was standing. I only saw the switch because of the moon's rays of light that graced the far side of the room. And because it had a window next to it, I was betting my bottom that it was my exit here.

After a little more groping, I passed by several low shelves filled with books. What the books were was none of my concern. I didn't need to know what he read during his time of exile or whatever.

Okay. Okay. 

I also passed by another door and by the stench that came from it, I was guessing he needed to clean it. And I'm sure as hell that it was the cabin's bathroom. As I continued my quest, I stumbled upon a small table, it had a radio and other devices I couldn't make out with my fingers. 

"Jin."

Once again, I felt the familiar tensing of my body. My right arm positioning itself as I watched the room. I was getting paranoid and the call of my name was just adding fuel to the fire. 

Damn it. Stop doing that! 

Straightening myself, I glared at the couch where he laid. Damn it. If only I was sure I could overpower him, I wouldn't be circling this stupid room.

I lowered the blade, maintaining my deathly grip on it as I reached a corner. From there, I found out there was nothing by that wall. No books, not tables, no anything. I raised my brow in question as I walked further, no creak or sound at all in my movements. 

My eyes reached the window where the door and light switch were. I could feel the feeling of freedom tickling my body. But, I knew better than anyone else that just running out there spelled 'death' for me. And even if I could slit Kaoru's throat as he slept, I knew that he wouldn't make a mistake of leaving that opening. For all I know, he might just be feigning sleeping and was waiting for me to make a mistake.

I wasn't going to leave an opening as much as possible. Going home with scars marring my pale skin is not something my husband would like to see. He loves the natural paleness of my skin, thank you very much.

My eyes widened when I felt my fingers touch hinges. And I'm guessing the hinges were from the door right next to me. Slowly, I slid to where the knob was, my body still facing the couch where I could see Kaoru breathing evenly. 

The fingers on my hand gingerly touched the cold knob. I felt goosebumps on my skin at the temperature. To think I was thinking of running outside wearing nothing but a skirt. Before I reached help, I'd have died from the cold. No shit. And it wasn't even winter yet. More like early autumn, fall, whatever you'd like to call it.

Softly, I turned the knob. Praying to all the heavens that it was open and ready for me to fly out of when needed.

"Jin."

My body stiffened at the call. He can not be calling my name in his sleep again. This creep is unbelievable. I continued my soft tugs on the knob. Apparently, it was a rusty door and only a loud pull would open it. 

If I just ran out the door, I'd be caught immediately so it was useless until I was sure Kaoru was dead. And I don't thi-

"Where do you think you're going, gorgeous?"