Bullied | j.b

10: Are you not telling me something?

How can I tell him?

How am I supposed to tell Justin and break his heart by telling him the Joey kissed me? I need to explain to him the entire story and explain that I don't like Joey like that. Maybe I should tell him I love him while I'm at it...

These thoughts run through my head as I walk to school the next day. As I'm walking I see just the person that I wanted to! Joey. I quickly try and avoide him by covering my face as I walk. Luckily he doesn't notice me so I take the chance to sit down.

A million thought and possibilities spin through my head as I try to think of what to do. I don't think I can do it. Not today at least. Just then Mae walks by me and I say "Mae, I don't think I can do it yet. If he loves me like how I love him then he will be really upset. I'll just have to tell him tomorrow." I finish as I get up.

"Okay Anna, I'll see you tomorrow. But promise me that you will tell him?"

"Okay I promise, bye Mae! Love you!" I say as I walk down the sidewalk.

"It's the right thing to do!" She says with a smile, "Love you to!" She yells to me as I walk down the street.

I'm a good student so I'm getting lots of stares as I walk towards my house. In the opposite direction of school. I've never skipped school unless I was sick. And then I see him. Justin is coming down the street right in my direction. He sees me and smiles, I give him a weak smile back and he frowns. 

"Whats wrong?" he asks me as we meet.

"Oh, I'm just not feeling well." I lie, "I'm going home, my mom said it was fine."

"Are you sure? Maybe I should stay with you." He tries to tell me. 

"No, no, no, I can't let you skip school to stay with me." I try to explain. 

"Please? C'mon you have to let me! I don't even want to go to school!"

"Justin!" I whine.

"Fine! But I at least get to walk you home, I'll just be a little late." He begs.

"Okay." I say taking his hand getting a sudden feeling of guilt. 

The rest of the walk is just our normal random talk. I'm pretty sure he knows somethings wrong and then he asks the question I was dreading. 

"So... uhh how was tutoring Joey?"

My face immediately starts to get hot and I'm on the verge of tears. 

"Umm... it was fine." I say quietly but I know he is not convinced. 

"Anna? Are you not telling me something?" He questions as we stop infront of my house and he blocks my way inside. 

"It's fine." I say starting to dry a tear. I just feel so guilty! I try to make my way around him and inside except he grabs my waist and starts tickling me. 

"Stop! Stop!" I shreick while giggling. 

He finally stops and I start crying, not because he hurt me, but because I hurt him. I let Joey kiss me and here Justin is. Justin grabs me and rubs my back soothingly as we walk into my house and up into my room. 

"Please tell me the real reason you wanted to go home?" He begs and I break. I just have to tell him. 

After I finish crying I start to explain feeling like I'm going to burst out in tears again. "Well, I was helping Joey out for a while, he was wearing a lot of cologne and breath spray. He was sitting really close so I suggested we take a little break and we walked outside. Then I climbed up that tree outside my window and he went through my house to meet me in my room. But I think he got the wrong idea. We were just talking then he started to lean in and I froze. After like 3 seconds of his lips on mine I snapped back to reality and pulled away and ran into the bathroom crying. Then he told me he didn't know about me and you and he left. Believe me, I didn't want to kiss him, I just didn't know what to do. I'm really sorry." I say starting to cry again.

Justin stares at me for a minute. "I just need to think for a minute." He says walking towards my door. "I'll be outside." He says to me with a bit of anger in his voice. 

I just cry. Then I hear a loud noise. 

I rush to my balcony where I see Justin chucking rocks at my balcony. 

"Justin what are you doing?!" I shreick. 

"I don't know! Okay? I'm just mad! How could you do this to me?! Why did you let him kiss you Anna?"

I take a step back, "I don't know Justin... I wasn't thinking and he just did it and I didn't realize it. I-I'm sorry." I say as the tears roll down my cheek once again. 

"I-I just need to go." He says as he starts to walk around the side of my house to leave. 

"Justin!"

"What?" He says a little annoyed. 

"I-I love you." I mumble quietly but I know he heard me. 

"I can't believe you could say that to me right now! You just broke my heart by telling me what Joey did and now you have the guts to tell me that? I'm leaving!" 

"Are you breaking up with me?" I ask quietly but regretting it seconds later.

"I don't know Anna." He mumbles and walks away leaving me standing on my balcony. 

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I step out into the cool september air as I head out for a quick walk. There is a creek with a path that goes right behind my house that I walk along a lot. The only thing I don't like it is because there is a big spot where you are aloud to smoke and it's right by my school so a lot of kids skip class and go there. 

The leaves crumble beneath my feet as I take in the smell of fall. I cough as I get a whiff of smoke coming from a large area of students just 'having a good time'. A search the crowd to see who is there and its just the usual people that I see sneaking out here. The ones that come to class high. Then I see an odd pair of people. Ryan and Chaz. They stare at me and I give them confused looks. Just then a familier face comes between them asking what they are staring at and my jaw drops. There is Justin standing there with a cigarette in his hand blowing puffs of smoke out of his mouth. 

"Justin?!" I shreick and he drops the cigarette with a guilty look on his face. 

"Anna wait!" He yells as I run down the path. 

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A/N: Sorry for the late update :/ I'm just glad that you guys are being patient :)

I just want to say that I'm not going to turn Justin into some drug addict or something. This is probably the only time he will even be holding a cigarette.

I hope you enjoyed this chapter guys :)

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