The Unspoken Words.

What I Haven't Said

They tell me that they're falling in love.
And I want to scream Ive already touched the ground. 
I wanna tell them about how I've never felt so unbalanced and centered at the same time
My equilibrium is fucked. 

I wanna tell them that they have saved me.
One to many times already. 

I wanna tell them of my fears. I don't wanna lose the best thing that's ever happened to me. But them leaving seems like too much of a reality.

I wanna tell that I have never felt such passion. 
Pure unadulterated lust. 
How boats have a natural rhythm with bodies. Of water.
Just like the earth I am 75 percent water.
And we have a natural rhythm.
Back and Forth.
I have dreams.

I wanna tell them sometimes I'll close my eyes and all I see are white dresses and tuxes. 

I wanna tell them. That they could do better.  That they deserve more. 

I wanna tell me. That sometimes I wish I was never born. And that I've never felt that way with them.

I wanna tell them that I can't help but cling to them. Because they keep me from spinning.

I wanna tell them. Their body is beautiful. Period.

I wanna tell them that Sears parking lots. Have become holy ground. 

I wanna tell them. They make me believe there might be a God. Because perfection like that just doesn't happen.

I wanna tell them I'm sorry. That I feel so much. Maybe more than were both ready for. And I'm sorry for being early.

Most importantly I wanna tell them. I love them.