Intentional But Unbelievable (Jalex)

What A Waste

Alex's POV

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It was another dead end after another. I was starting to think that maybe J had never existed and was a figment of my imagination. There was the inner doubt, and then there was the guilt. I'd really hurt Jack. How, I have no idea, but nonetheless, I'd hurt him. And he'd been nothing but nice to me. There might've been a lot going on with him for all I knew.

I hated feeling guilty. It was one of those feelings that just eat you alive. I sighed, and made myself walk to Jack's room. On my way there, I saw his roommate, Rian, who didn't look very happy to see me. He grabbed my arm roughly and took me over to the same oak tree I remembered telling Jack that I thought he was an egotistical douchbag. He pushed me close to the tree.

"You'd better not fucking hurt him, or I'll hurt you." Rian growled at me before walking away. I was a bit scared. I'd never seen Rian that angry. I glanced at the tree in front of me. In a branch a little out of my reach was a piece of paper that read Alex, scrawled on it in what only could have been J's handwriting. I reached for it, only the tips of my fingers able to touch it. I huffed and jumped a little, only to still come a little short. I jumped over and over again, not caring how about how stupid I looked. After a few more jumps, I realized that I wouldn't be able to reach it by jumping. So I took a deep breath and started climbing the tree. I reached over, the note in grasp,  I raised my hands in victory, just as I fell out of the tree.

"Fuck." I groaned as I rolled onto my side, wincing in pain. I opened the note and began to read it.

'I really hope you didn't fall out of the tree. Mostly because this note means nothing. Just a filler. There's an Adventure Time blanket at the edge of the quad. Find that with the next note with further instructions. I hope to see you soon. -JBB' I groaned. I'd went through all that trouble. I stood and dusted myself off. There were dozens of people lying on blankets in the quad, how the hell was I supposed to find a specific one? I sighed, it didn't matter how much I had to do, I was going to find out who J really was.

I kept looking all around me, trying to find and Adventure Time blanket. Which was hard considering everyone in the quad seemed to have some sort of cartoon blanket. There were Powerpuff Girls, Spongebob, Ninja Turtles, Regular Show, Fairy Grandparents, and countless others.

"Hey, Alex. You still looking for that guy?" Zach asked me. I flinched at the sight of him. He didn't have a shirt on, and had a skateboard under one arm.

"Uh, yeah. It's almost like hide-and-go-seek." I laughed nervously.

"Is Jack still helping you?" Zach asked kindly. I shook my head. Guilt flooding my veins along with a bitter taste on my tongue.

"No, he said, it hurt too much to help me." I said quietly.

"Oh. That doesn't sound like Jack. He wouldn't give up in helping someone unless it was unavoidable." Zach was silent for a moment, when a look of surprise passed across his face. "What if, he's helping this guy and knows exactly where he's at, and that's why he couldn't help you?" I smiled a little at him.

"I'd like to think that. But he was..really upset when he walked away from me." I didn't want to think back to seeing those tears fall down Jack's face as he'd walked away from me.

"Oh. Uh, I'd really like to help, but I'm on my way to meet some friends of mine." He shifted his weight slightly. "I wish you luck though. See ya around." He walked away from me, the moment he hit sidewalk, he dropped his skateboard and coasted away. I went back to my search, even more determined to find this note. Out of the corner of my eyes, a patch of yellow caught my eye. I looked over and saw a small bouquet of yellow flowers. I went over to them, a piece of paper stuck to them coming into view, along with the Adventure Time blanket they sat on. I squealed and dropped to my knees, opening the note quickly.

'Hey, you found this note. Good job. I hope you like the flowers. And uh just take this blanket and come to your room. I'm waiting there for you.'

My room? How the hell had he gotten in there?

I was practically skipping the whole way back to my room. I was excited and scared.  I stood outside my door, mentally preparing myself for what, or who'd, be on the other side. I twisted the knob and power the door. Okay, I'd forgotten to lock the door? No, I hadn't, hm, I might need to keep an eye on this guy. I walked into my dorm, it looking empty like it usually did. I looked behind furniture, trying to find him, and dammit, if there was another note, I was gonna start throwing stuff.

I sighed. He probably wasn't even there. I went to my fridge and got a glass of water. I took a sip and walked into my bedroom.

"I was wondering when you were gonna look in here." A voice spoke, making me almost spill my water all over the floor.

"Oh my fucking God, you scared the shit out of me." I turned to be faced with Jack lying on my bed casually.  "Jack?"

"Um, yeah." He looked away from me nervously. And then it all made sense. It all clicked. This whole time I'd really like J, and J was Jack. Jack was J. He'd lied to me. I dropped the glass in my hand. I knew I'd have to clean that later but, that wasn't a problem. "Alex?"

"You're J?" I asked Jack. He nodded.

"Have been this whole time." He told me sheepishly. I bit my bottom lip in anger. He'd lied to me. Made me believe that I'd done him wrong when in fact, he'd tricked me. I was so stupid. So fucking stupid. He looked up at me, his eyes worried and sad. I shut my eyes and chose my words carefully.

"So you lied to me?" I was beyond hurt and angry with him. I felt used and dirty. He stared at the bedspread beneath him. How had I not even seen this coming? You're so dumb, Alex. So dumb. And for once, I agreed with my thoughts.

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A/N: This might be a little short, sorry. I typed this all up on my phone, so sorry for an mistakes. And I hope you guys are ready for the next chapter. I might just upload another chapter since I think this one's so short.