prove me wrong (joshler)

•chapter 1•

hello frens :)) it's @/daddunn here and i really hope i don't suck but if you enjoy remember to vote comment and share this story. alright enjoy!!

AND TRIGGER WARNING IN THIS CHAPTER stay strong frens |-/

  6:23 am, monday

tyler joseph woke up from his 2 hour sleep. or whatever sleep meant because he obviously never got enough sleep. he rubs his eyes and attempts to reach over his bed onto his nightstand to shut off his alarm that was buzzing and having a spasm attack.

tylers p.o.v:

"shhhhhuuussshhhhh!" i hear myself whisper as i slam down on my clock repeatedly until the beeping stops. school has been going on for about a month now and im still not very adapted to waking up so early ever since... he has been keeping me up all night. i thought he would go away since school was staring but now that he's been here for a few years, i don't feel the need to let him go. he's all i have anymore. since sophomore year my parents have been out of the house so much more often. i feel they are embarrassed of me being their son because i came out as gay only to them. but mom has been "out" for two weeks now and dad just slipped away but he comes home once in a while and dosent really care what i do anymore. for all he'd care id me naked running through the streets drunk and he wouldn't even bother.

i walk into my bathroom and splash water on my face and my sleep-deprived, black, swollen eyes. it dosent really take me long to get ready in the morning. i feel that i only have to put on clothes and walk out the door and i haven't been hungry in the morning lately. which should concern me but it honestly really dosent. i pull on my black skinny jeans and a red t-shirt i found on the floor of my closest, pushed my hair to the side and hopped downstairs. i noticed dads car was in the driveway which was new. i didn't care so i just-

bring them

he said. i froze, my arm on the door handle shaking. "not now..." i whisper. not again he can't come during school again. no i can't let him.

they are in your drawer go get them, tyler

"shut up!" i whisper scream. i can feel my stomach flip in knots and beads of sweat form on the back of my neck and my vision starts to blur as tears fill my eyes. the only way for him to go away is to do what he says...temporarily atleast. i resist for a second but i end up running upstairs.

i peer into my room realizing i left my phone plugged in on the charger. well aren't i stupid? i walk over to grab my phone but i knew i wouldn't have any texts or calls because the only contacts on my phone are my mom, dad, brother who has WAY too many friends-

you don't even have friends tyler no one to call you or worry about you. but don't worry im always here for you.

"STOP" i basically say out loud this time. my heart races and i try to catch my breath and tears form in my eyes as i remember the night before... looking down at my wrists i see what happened last night. how do you not see those this morning?! i hit myself in the head with my fists and throw myself on the bed, screaming into my covers. tears stung in my eyes. "WHY ME?! WHY THIS HAS TO HAPPEN TO ME?!" i sob.

"TYLER ROBERT JOSEPH" i hear my father tell from his room downstairs... i lay in silence my face in my hands. "I HOPE YOU KNOW that school starts in 15 minutes and your here in MY house so i suggest you leave. NOW."
i don't say anything and pick up a black zip up jacket from under my bed and my phone and i start to leave-

you forgot something tylerrr

"i don't need you here ok?! im better off without you! so why don't you just leave?"

but wouldn't you miss me?

they end up coming to school with me. yeah the blades. the walk is short and cooling walking through the fresh smell of pine and fog in the crisp morning air of ohio. my black shoes crunch through the dead leaves that have fallen on the sidewalk. i feel the eyes of other students around me as they're probably walking to school also.

yeah their looking at how stupid you look. they can already tell your gay Tyler-

"no they won't! they can't!" slips out of my lips and some girl- eh probably a freshman looks at me all weird like "why are you talking to yourself ok?" ugh im such an embarrassment really Tyler?! so the thing is no one at school knows im gay so if anyone were to find out i wouldn't just be the kid who's ignored... id be the kid getting picked on... laughed at... and maybe even beat up, who knows? actually i know. last year there was this junior who came in as a new student and openly gay. his name was brendon and he was pretty cool. well i wouldn't know, i never spoke to him. he ended up leaving only 4 months at my school because he was picked on in class, laughed at, mocked, and yes, beat up. i haven't seen him since.

i walk up to the front doors of the school and walk past all the groups of people with me head down. people here have groups... i don't, im alone. back in freshman year i had a fren named chris. we hung out all the time but in the middle of sophomore year, he just decided to hang out with other people.

probably because you were so weird and got all quiet and stupid.

argh not again. my hands rush to my head as i opened the door "no no please stop go away!" i whisper" *thud*
i whip around to see a boy that bumped into me and i froze. God Tyler you stopped in the middle of the doorway are you serious yo-
"hey man, you okay?" he looked at me.
he had bright pink hair... that's what i first noticed, he was generally tall and really buff arms like woah... im guessing he was ripped...tyler don't think like that he's a random stranger and he had a nose piercing and his eyes are all squinty, speaking of his eyes his brown eyes are sparkling like brown sparkly orb eye things-
"dude?!" the boy puts his arm on my shoulder. i freak out and snap out of my trams and drop my books all over the floor. "oh why now" i mumble to myself. my body rushes to the ground to pick up my books and my phone which was face down on the cement. the boy bends down next to me "dude im sorry i didn't mean to-" i cut him off "no it's fine i gotta go" i say as I pick up my stuff and run to class leaving the boy with bright pink hair, squinty eyes, and a bright smile at the doorway.

that was probably garbage but yeah thx for reading if you even did😂 make sure to leave a comment and favorite this or whatever this is my first story so bear with me!!
stay strong
stay alive
stay street |-/