prove me wrong (joshler)

•chapter 4•

hello frens
im sorry for last nights chapter v depressing 😓
DONT HATE MEE
i hope you enjoy this filler chapter :))

joshs p.o.v

i was at school with debby
we  have a long past together since we started out as family friends back from around 5th or 6th grade. we ended up dating in middle school but that was just awkward and it didn't really mean anything anyway, were still great friends.

we started walking torwards first period which was biology. it was only my second day at this school and my junior year. i was home schooled all throughout elementary and then in middle school my parents put me in private school, but i convinced them to let me go to public school my junior year. "whatever makes you happy was the response that i got"
i had to start the year here in public school in october because of family reasons but i still ended up here.

debby stopped at her locker,
"what's new with you?" she asks me.
"ah, nothing much, dad is just working a lot and my brother is doing football so yeah, they're in and out a lot." i answer her.

people think we're like meant to be,  but we have no romantic interest in each other so it dosent really matter.

she nods her head and turns around to open her locker. i walk a few more steps down to get to mine, yet i had the constant fear that i already passed it and i was just looking like an idiot... a lost one. a lot of people in public school kinda made my heart quicken and had me breathe heavier.

i get to my locker and slowly dial the combination just to make sure i don't get it wrong. the top pops open and i swing the door open to get the stuff i need. my mind kinda started to wonder about that tyler kid. his face is just, ugh it has this sad permanent look tattooed on and his eyes have dark circles and are very heavy, along with that, they're always pink and puffy, it looks like he's been crying. i was thinking about him last night. my younger sister used to self harm and i could sort of tell that he might because the way he acts but i don't want to jump to conclusions so i didn't convince myself of it. im a straight guy and all but i really wanted to be buds with him and maybe help him. and if this isn't gay at all, he was cute. not in a gay way or anything it's just that his expression, the way he sits, talks, walks, rubs his eyes.

im not gay josh, stop.

i pushed the thought away as i see tyler taking large steps, pace very fast, walking through the hallways with his eyes and face redder than ever. wait? was he crying?

"tyler!" i called for him and he glanced at me for a brief second and he started to walk a little faster.
"tyler! wait up!" i call after him again as i chase after him and put my hand on his shoulder and he turns around.

he was definitely crying.

"hey tyler, buddy what's wrong?" i say as gentle as possible.
he sniffled and with the end of his sleeves pulled up to his palms, wiped at his eyes.
"i-it's nothing" he barley even whispered. and his voice cracked and he began to sob into his sleeve. i could hear each breath released into his hand and him try to grab another one but then just get choked up by his sobs.
i put my arm on his shoulder, and asked him: "do you need to talk?"
he shook his head no
i felt so bad for the boy, his eyes squeezed shut as his beautiful brown hair spiked up but not with gel but naturally. beautiful? what? well he was but anyways blahasdfghjkl.
"are you sure tyler?" i asked him again.
he once again wiped his eyes with his sleeves on his palms. and his eyes. wow his eyes were brown but it was more of a sweet brown. and... and they sparkled    "yeah sure..." he finally answered.
"but not now," he said again.
"ok tyler, when would be okay?" i was then patting his back with my hand and i could feel his bones from his spine.
he sniffled again.
"in the bathroom during fourth period, before lunch, 11:15 meet me there... please." he whimpered and it was barely audible.
"yes of course tyler, ill meet you there."
and with that, the boy went off to class, leaving me in the middle of the hall staring at him.

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should i update again later tonight ooh i have great plans for this book *evil smile* don't worry it'll be gr8 love meeeee :)
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