Sarah Montana Living In The Boys' Dorm

Ch 79. Heaven Or Hell Doesn't Matter

Short chapter... Anyway. Dedicated to my editor, iloveweirdos! Are you doing okay?

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Could this be heaven? I felt light. I knew that I wasn't conscious. I knew that this was heaven. Maybe God was being nice to me? Maybe he saw the good points of my reckless actions? Well I hope so.

I suddenly felt a chill. It was hot at first but it felt like a typical summernight and then you enter a building that's has AC's. It was cold, but in a comfortable way since it was too hot a second ago.

It felt like I was flying. But I couldn't see anything - As if I was scared of where I was heading. The answer between heaven and hell was still unknown but I didn't dare to hope. If I hoped for heaven I knew that it'd be hell that I'd come to. Just close your eyes until you're there and they can't regret your placing. That was quite smart. But God can do anything right? Like... read minds? Then I'm doomed so I'll apologise. Sorry God, I didn't mean any harm.

"Krystal!" Darrén's loud voice yelled. I smiled. What a nice gift before I die, God. Darrén's voice. I felt warm.

"Wake up!" it yelled. Maybe a bit too late. I'm dead right?

"You can't die!"

"I told you I'm already dead!" I screamed and automatically opened my eyes. I was in a white room. And he was in front of me. He looked tired. He was worn out and his clothes was shredded and dark. His eyes were so red.

I noticed that I was wearing those things on my mouth that nurses give those who can't breath well and took it off.

"Where am I?" I asked looking around. Probably a hospital. Why am I asking if I already know the answer? He looked down. I couldn't see his face and I assumed that he was mad at me.

"Darrén?" I said but he didn't even move. I grabbed his head to make him look at me but it was heavy like hell and I didn't have the energi to try. I was unexpectingly tired. I could barelt move a finger without deep breaths. I was exhausted.

"Why am I here...?" I talked to myself because Darrén was busy... staring on the floor.

"Please answer me Darrén..." I tried to get him to talk. I gave up quickly, thinking that I'll try when I've gotten more energy.

Suddenly he grabbed my shoulders and shoved me into him. I lost my balance with the surprise attack and fell backwards with him following me.

Now this was embarrassing. He was on top of me. Hugging me tightly. I couldn't help being confused. I was stiff like a log but when I thought about it being Darrén I relaxed. I was about to die. And hugging him may be something that I wanted to do before dying so I'll take this chance.

It was so warm but I didn't mind. It was Darrén. Darrén was here with me. I closed my eyes. He took some distance between us after a while and placed his hand on the bed behind me right next to my ears, with one leg between mine that kind of worried me. I got a better look at him. He looked so sad. So miserable.

His eyes dug into mine. Lucky thing that my bangs were down and covered my eyes to the extent that this dense guy wouldn't know. Again, I noticed how red his eyes was. I reached my hand to his jaw but before touching it I felt a tear drip down on my cheek.

It never looked like he was crying. It rather looked like he was just upset. But he let out just one tear right on me. I've never been a person that dislikes guys that cry or loves guys that can cry. But he just let down one tear and it stopped. As if it was enough.

"Darrén..." I said. He looked away with shame in his eyes.

"If you'd die I'd kill myself." he mumbled.