Sarah Montana Living In The Boys' Dorm

Ch 30. Just Tell Them Then

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"I don't trust you anymore." he said. His voice was all hurt and he didn't even look at me. "When your parents said it... I couldn't do anything but feeling disappointed."

His words struck me like a lightning and I tried to run but he only came closer whenever I ran.

"I-I... I'm sorry! I didn't mean anything b-but- I- I'm sorry! Please forgive me!" I begged. His face looked just as cold as mom- Carolynne's face was that day.

"I got someone I trust much more than I trust you." he smiled and I knew that she had infected him. Next to him was mom. They were both wearing same faces. Just as cold as ever. No mercy was found inside.

"Darrén! Please!" I yelled but they drifted away. I kept running after but it was like I was fast glued to the floor, not letting me off. I screamed and screamed for them to come back.

"NOOOOO!" I yelled so loud my throat hurt.

"What's the matter?!" He came back. But I realised that I was in my room. It was a dream, but it still seemed so real and I still hadn't recovered. He suddenly hugged me and told me over and over again that it was just a dream. I nodded and even caught Tom glaring at us. I don't really care because Darrén cares of me. He may even have thought that I was dreaming about my family of something.

I recently have been having these dreams. About Darrén not accepting what I have done. It's as if my mind is playing tricks, trying to figure out how his reaction would be like. I can't imagine that either and it can be good that I have these dreams to know how he will do but I can't sleep, when having all these troubles and knowing that Darrén would come and tell me all those awful things. He genuinely cared of me and I can't deny that, so that's why I care about him.

He was still holding and I wanted to stay because for some reason I feel that I'm safe in his arms. Though he may not feel the same way since he'll think it's gay.

As soon as Tom left he had taken good care of me and he was like a mother to me. He always went to get food or other stuff and even fed me. I told him I'd be fine but he refused. I could tell that he wanted to know the reason and fought against the curiosity. I wanted to tell him so badly but knew that couldn't. Once he left again I jumped out of the window and ran to the girls dorm while ripping off my wig when I saw that there was no one seeing me. I had to go see Ambreal and Emíne. They're like drugs to me especially when I'm sad.

There were girls outside and talked about me as soon as they saw me. They all knew me before when I was an outcast in this school and wondered why I was here. I didn't bother to answer them and went straight to Emíne's room since it's safer when she lives alone in that room.

"Emíne!" I yelled as soon as the crashing sound of the door hit the wall when I slammed it open. My eyes widened. Emíne wasn't alone. She was there, and in her arms was Chris, crying.

"S-Sorry." I muttered and slammed back the door running away. What's this?! Why is Chris with Emíne?! Are they together or something? My head was spinning and it all went black.

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I couldn't open my eyes, because they felt so heavy. I rustling sounds and knew someone was presence. But I felt two different presences, from both my left and right direction. I heard small chattering but couldn't catch what they said. There wasn't anything pleasant since the tone sounded as if two cats were fighting each other. I slowly opened my eyes and fought the heaviness.

"Darrén...? Emíne?" I said when seeing them fight like always. They froze up. When I tried to climb out of the bed they both grabbed my arm and told me to rest. I sighed and told them I'm fine but they still wouldn't listen. It's so typical the Hetace siblings. They're really similar. When Darrén told Emíne to leave she refused and they started argumenting, when Emíne started off with a "I'm her best friend!".