Living Louder (OUAT)

Chapter Four: Pain

Chapter Four: Pain

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Felix didn't want to feel pity for Emma. He really didn't; she was a strong girl, and she deserved a lot, but he couldn't help it. She had fallen in love with a Lost Boy-despite the fact that she was lost herself, it wasn't really anything promising.

Lost Boys knew nothing of love: they were so used to being forgotten or unloved, that they didn't remember how it felt. Or how to love back.

And Bae did, love her back, that is. It was so blindingly obvious that they were in love with each other.

Emma was starting to doubt her love though, and Felix knew it. She was worried about her feelings, and her mentality. And she was starting to wonder if she was insane. Not insane, though. In love. At first, she didn't show it. But after Bae-Neil-showed his face, everything changed. She let her guard down for a second, and in that second, Pan caught a glimpse of her true self, and was mesmerized.

And that was never a good thing.

He wasn't in love, yet.

He was attracted to the innocent child inside her, but also to the warrior facade. He wanted to bust open her shell, but not break it. He wanted to see the true Emma. And if he did, Felix knew that they would both fall for each other.

And he felt pity, because she had two boys-not even men, boys-pining over her, trying to get her to love them-for different reasons, obviously-when she didn't want anyone.

Both boys, so lost, thinking they've found Emma.

And she didn't want that.

He felt pity because she was in a bind keeping her in that position.

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Baelfire couldn't cry.

He couldn't anymore.

After all he had been through, he knew that no tears would come, even though this was one of the worst things he had been through. He had cried too much in his past lifetimes, he couldn't cry again.

But he wanted to.

He knew, he knew, that he had lost Emma. Right then and there he had lost her. But, he let go of her before hadn't he? He had let her go, and now what were they?

Gone? Broken? Lost?

Bae never wanted to hurt Emma. He never wanted to break her. He never wanted to build another wall around the ones he had climbed up. He never wanted to prove to her what she had been told her whole life: that she wasn't good enough.

But he did just that.

And he regretted it every single second of the day.

But there was nothing he could do, was there?

He could apologize all the wanted. She would never accept.

He could try and get close again. But it would only end in pain and heartbreak.

He could let her do what she wanted. And how would that end up?

Emma was a wild card. If he put their relationship in her hands, she would do something unexpected and probably hurt more than one person, along with herself.