Hidden Gold

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image of chanel above portrayed by candice swanepoel

song of the chapter: moves - big sean 

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c h a n e l

Growing up was never easy for me, my life stopped being rainbows and sunshines at the age of 11. I don't know what happened because to me nothing did happen, but my life changed the moment I turned 11.

All my life I had grown up with my younger twin sister who looked nothing like me, thank goodness. Before we turned 11 everything was golden for us, our parents adored their two little girls and our brother who was six years older than us showered us with love. We were always the favorites in the family everyone knew it, but soon it wasn't us who were the favorites, it was Claire.

After we were 11 the spotlight left me and remained on Claire, everyone cared more about her wellbeing than mine. Claire always was the weaker out of the two of us so if anything happened to the both of us she would get the attention and I was left in the dust.

As I grew up I slowly got used to the fact that I was just that middle child that no one really cared much about. I was the inbetween child that was just there, everyone had forgotten about me so they could focus on Claire.

I didn't mind though I was perfectly capable of caring for myself, I didn't need the affection or approval of other people. I was not weak, I did not depend on other people, I only depended on myself and that was all I needed.

"Chanel, guess what I got," Amanda sang to me as I was sitting on the couch in her house aimlessly scrolling through my twitter feed.

"What?" I ask not bothering to look up from my phone.

"The good stuff," She says as I snap my head looking dead at the little baggy filled with weed. Amanda was not who I would classify a friend, she was more just there in my life. She never cared about me and I never cared for her, but she always had good weed and pills so I kept her around.

"Bring it over here then so I can go home already," I told her annoyed with how long I've been needing to stay. She did as she was told and I quickly rolled it into a blunt and lit it to take a few puffs. I handed it to her so she could do the same, she handed it back and I took three more puffs then decided it was enough for today.

"We should go to a party," Amanda giggled the effects already starting to hit her.

"Who's throwing one tonight?" I asked interested at her suggestion.

"Luke is throwing one tonight, I think it already started," She informs me. Luke is a "friend" of ours who throws kickass parties. It's hard to miss one because they're so much fun, after going to one you just want to keep going back.

"Let's go then," I tell her as I grab my keys. Grabbing my leather jacket I walk out of the house and into my car waiting for Amanda to lock up the house. She enters the car and we soon travel the short distance to Luke's house.

Luke's house was neither big nor small, it was a cozy two story house his parents owned, but since they were hardly ever home Luke did as he pleased with house, which meant throwing parties almost every weekend. Amanda and I walked into the familiar house and were greeted by numerous people all who were drunk out of their minds.

"I'm going to go find Luke," Amanda says loudly so I could hear her over the roaring bass coming from the speakers which I nod to in response. Luke was also Amanda's non-official boyfriend. They were more of fuck buddies than boyfriend and girlfriend in my opinion, but when they referenced each other it was boyfriend and girlfriend.

I wandered off towards the kitchen wanting to get drunk out of my mind just like the other teens here. I wanted to forget who I was and forget all about my sad and miserable life for one night. I found a big bottle of Grey Goose in the back of his refrigerator that was thankfully opened. I opened the bottle and began drinking straight from it, it was still pretty full so the entire bottle was destined to get me extremely drunk.

I walked out of the kitchen towards the living room where everyone was dancing, I decided to join in on the fun and started moving my hips on an attractive guy. His hands roamed all over my body which I didn't object to. Everything got super heated and the effects of the alcohol began to wear off on me and soon our lips were connected while our feet began moving to the nearest bedroom. 

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