A Famous Affair

A Famous Affair chapter 36

Christmas Day is wonderfully uncomplicated. We enjoyed a leisurely breakfast in bed together after calling all of our loved ones. I spoke to Lissy and Lottie for over half an hour. Jonny rang his mum, Steph, Harry and the lovely Beef. Who, surprisingly, wanted to speak to me personally to wish me a very happy Christmas. That honestly made my day. Then I rang Lydia and Jake, who were just about to set off for Christmas dinner with Jake's parents. Yet another first for Miss Lydia I-Will-Never-Settle-Down Mason. Finally, I called Simon and Mary, who bless her, actually burst into tears over the phone when I handed her to Jonny. His wanting to wish her a Merry Christmas was all too much for the overwhelmed sweetheart. We happily lazed around, laughing and joking. Exchanging stories of our past and finding out whether we wanted the same things for our future. I already knew that one day Jonny wanted to marry me, but it felt wonderful to hear him say it again. I asked him about whether he wanted to be a father. Jonny told me he had never really thought about it before but wasn't opposed to the idea either. Then we talked at length about how I was worried about whether I would be able to have children again. My chances are lower now with me only having the one fallopian tube, but Jonny being Jonny, just held me close; kissing away all of my fears with his loving and wise words. "What will be, will be." Is the last thing he said to me on the subject.

I don't think I want to have another baby, I just needed to know whether Jonny does. I mean, look at me. I'm now thirty seven with two older daughters. I honestly don't think I could face returning to dirty nappies, breast feeding and sleep deprivation. That's why it was so important to find out whether fatherhood is something that Jonny is desperate to have. I needed to know where we both stood on the subject. From his comments, I'm guessing that he isn't yet ready but that could change in the future. I can't think about it, though. I have enough to worry about. I can't worry about whether or not we will have a baby in the future. I will simply have to cross that bridge, if and when I come to it.

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Come the evening, it's a bitterly cold and crisp night. The stars are out in all their glory. Every single one can be seen in the beautiful clear sky, stunning and scintillating above us. After being in the hot tub together, we dry off. We put on the thickest and fluffiest towelling robes, cocooning ourselves within a luxurious teddy bear throw to snuggle up with on the outside seating. I am tightly wrapped around Jonny's lean, muscular torso. My head rests on his chest, rising and falling with his relaxed breathing. We sit quietly, looking out at the city lights and up at the starlit sky. Silence has never felt so comforting, so beautiful. Eventually the silence is broken with Jonny's gentle voice. "Do you believe in fate, Jessica?" Jonny doesn't move or look at me when he asks his question; he just continues to watch the night sky.

With my hand flat to his chest, I lift my head up slightly. "I'm not sure. Why, do you?"

Jonny glances down at me. "I never used to, but sometimes I think back to the day when I met you. Erin had actually booked me into another hotel, but I made her change it to The Broadway at the last minute." Jonny smiles, as he strokes each one of my fingers so lovingly while he reminisces.

"I didn't know that. Why did you change hotels?"

Jonny gently shrugs his shoulders. "That's my point; I don't know why I asked her to change it. What exactly was my reason for doing so? I honestly have no idea why? All I know, is that if I hadn't changed my mind . . . I never would have met you." He kisses my fingers. God, I love it when he does that!

I snigger. "Shit . . . your life could have been so much simpler." I playfully bite his softer than soft ear lobe.

He lets out an over-exaggerated sigh. "True." I look at his cute satiric grin staring down at me, so I teasingly pinch his side. "Ow!!" he yells.