Heroin

Chapter four

|| this chapter is based on our ten promises on youtube. If you havent seen it you should look into it because omg -heart breaks-||




"yes yes im on my way." Levi muttered before hanging up the phone.




Eren had asked him to come over everyday for the past two weeks to have short conversations about drugs and what not. Yesterday he didnt call though, making levi worry eren was mad at him for refusing to say anything about the drugs he did do. He didnt have a problem with it. Though he could touch the real eren and, he dare say it, do dirty things to him (which have been on his mind lately) levi could still talk to eren -though he may not be real-whenever he wanted. But that night, and the several nights before, dream-eren had stopped coming. Leaving him to wait in the dark whilst other phantoms terrorized him. I walked up the stairs past the several green doors, before he got to the older looking grey door at the end of the hall. Its the only thing we can afford right now ,eren had told him. Levi barely had time to knock before eren opened the door and snatched his wrist, pulling him into the house quickly.




"We had a breakthrough!" He cheered.




Levi cocked my head slightly.



"Cigarettes!" Eren sang




"Cigarettes?"




"Cigarettes." He nodded.




The older man sighed, shaking his head. "You want to fix one addiction with another?"





Eren giggled pulling a small box from his pocket and pushing it to levi's chest. His cheeks grew warm, a deep blush forming as he felt erens fingers press against him through his t-shirt. Eren smiled more, his eyes glowing with happiness. Levi frowned with a sigh.




"My dad died of lung cancer." He muttered.




Erens smile faded. He let the box slip from his fingers, hitting the floor. His palms pressed flat against levi's chest, heart beating so fast he was scared eren could feel it.




"This is hopeless." Yhe brunette groaned, walking off towards the next room.



Evi shifted awkwardly looking at his toes. He would never not dissapoint eren.




"Heroin." He said quietly.




"Huh?" Eren asked, poking his head out from the kitchen.





"Heroin.... I do heroin." Levi repeated looking at his toes. "I mean i do mostly everything, cocain, acid, meth but i can stop those. its mostly herion."





He looked up. Eren stood on the other side of the room looking smaller than ever. His eyes were big filling with tears as he searched for the words to say.




"Its not that big if a d-"





"I-i dont want you to die...." He muttered so quietly levi almost didnt hear him "i really like you..."




Eren stepped forwards slowly before wrapping his arms around the shorter man, his head buried in the crook of levi's neck. Everything became hot all at once as he hesitantly put his hands on the friend he had secretly been falling for.




"Ill do everything i can to help you." Eren said, his voice tense. "I promise you wont end up like my father."





Levis fingers were placed under erens chin, pulling his head up with a soft caress of skin. A small tear ran down erens cheek, a look of hopelessness on his face. Levi leaned in abit, as if saying he wanted to kiss him. Eren noticed, and looked at his lips. He leaned in, closing the space between them, their their lips grazed softly before levi tilted his head, deepening the kiss. Erens hands ran up his chest, fisting his shirt.




"I need you to make me a few promises." Eren muttered through the kiss.




"Mmm?" Levi replied pulling away slightly, his fingertips grazing erens jaw.




"One." Eren began. "Stay with me... As much as possible.




....Two. Ill try to do what you say as much as possible. So please refrain from hurting me."





Levis fingers tangled into erens hair, pulling our heads closer together.




"Three." Eren continued "please trust me... Just doing that makes me unbelievably happy.




....Four. Please help me keep you alive."





Their lips connected again for a short period of time. The others heart almost breaking from the amout of care found in erens voice, more care than anyones ever had for him.




"Five. ...Please talk to me, doing that makes me unbelievably happy...





....Six. ....Please treat me like im special... If you treat me like just another aquaintance i dont think i could bare it."





Levi listened intently, eyes filled with passion.




"Seven. ....Ill probally argue sometimes... Please hear me out.



...Eight. ...If i disrespect you, please leave me.




...Nine... Please dont blame yourself...."





Erens fingertips ran down the black haired males arm, until their fingers entwined tightly.






"10. Please stay with me until the end, ... And after that, i want you to know that ive always cared about you, levi."





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Levi felt a weight on his chest, making it harder to breathe than usual. He opened his eyes slowly, the sun coming in the windows buring his corneas.




"E-eren...?" He muttered in a sexy morning voice.



Thats when he noticed the tears in erens eyes. Levi cocked his head in confusion, and gently bushed his hair behind his ear.



"I-i thought you were dead...." The brunette stuttered.



"Eren..."



He laced his fingers into levis hair, burying his head into the crook of the others neck. Levi could feel erens shaky breathe against his skin as he exhaled stress. Eren asked him to stay the night, because his brother was going to be gone all night and he didnt want to be alone, also he wanted to watch levi. He didnt have a problem with it. That just meant no drugs and constant kisses.




"I cant keep worring about you..." Eren wimpered. "How am i going to trust you?"


Levi knew we were going to have issues some times but he didnt think it would be so soon. He put my arms around eren, hugging him.




"Id never do anything to hurt you." He said, his voice still gravely.




Eren laughed softly. "That was one hell of a 'good morning'"



Levi ignored him, licking the top of his ear before rolling out of bed.




"Y-your leaving?!" Eren asked as he straitened his clothing.




"I need a job." The older man claimed, his fingers hooking onto his coat as he walked out the door.





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Levi walked into a 420 store down the road. ((To those of you that dont know: 4/20 is national marijuana day. Also this store could be well known as sunshine daydream)) of course they wouldnt drug test you if you worked here! The bell ran when he pushed into the building. The air overwhelmed him, smelling like sex on the beach, and dragon mist. He held his breathe as he walked further in. It just kept getting darker, incents burning more perfusly*





"Can i help you sir?" The woman at the desk asked, standing from her chair.





"Uh...." Levi hesitated as she leaned over the counter, the tops of her breasts in his immediate veiw. "Do you have an application?"





"Oh yeah!" She exclaimed with an exhadurated innocent voice, standing back up and heading towards the wall.





She bent down, her knees not bending, as if she were stretching. Her short skirt came up, revealing where the string of her thong should have been. He looked away quickly, pretending to look at posters as she finished up.





"Here." She said, handing me a green packet.




He frowned at it. Homework, he thought. Levi took the green paper and began to walk away.




"Hey!" She called, making him look back. "I hope the job works out for you! I wouldnt mind seeing you again."




Her eyes travled his body, longingly, making his cheeks grow red.




"Uh- oh yeah! Yeah thanks." He stuttered before hurrying out the door.





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Levi walked into his apartment. The air was cold, allowing him to keep his coat on. Infact he could see his breathe, due to bills not being paid. He set the application down on the cluttered desk, next to a pen. Later, he thought, as he sat back on the bed. What to do? Levi looked over to the dresser, where the sterelized needles sat. Suddenly there was a frantic knock on the door. He got up with a groan, walking lazily towards the door, stumbling slightly over his own feet, and crumbling dignity. fingers wrapped around the cold door nob, reminding him of the cold substance running through his veins.






"Eren?" Levi asked, opening the door to find him doubled over panting.





"H....hi." Eren replied while gasping for air.





"W.... What are you doing h-?"





Erens arms wrapped around him, the goose bumps on his skin tickling the back of the others neck. Cold blue lips pressed tightly to the older mans as if to keep warm. It seemed as though eren forgot his coat when coming here, his fingers struggled to tighten around levi's hair, the brunettes freezing finger tips, touching his ears and giving him chills. Eren pulled away in gasps for air.




"Havent caught your breathe yet?" Levi asked, shutting the door.





"Sorry... I forgot to breath..." Eren muttered, his back pressed against the wall.





The black haired man walked back towards his bed.





"It really isnt much warmer in here is it?" Eren muttered, hugging himself as he shivered.





Levi tossed a blanket erens way, which he happily wrapped around himself.





"What did you come here for?" He asked, inspecting the short bitten nails on his fingers.





Eren blushed walking around slowly. "I-i wanted to make sure you were alright."





Levi frowned. Trust was going to be a big issue for them.






"Im okay." He assured, pulling off his coat, pale skin already used to the weather.




Eren stopped by the dresser, letting the blue blanket fall from his shoulders so he could fold it over a chair beside him. His fingers travled the wooden surface, before retreiving something. Levi knew what it was immediantly, his heart stopping as eren turned towards hik.





"Needles...." He muttered, holding them up so the light bounced off the shiny silver tips. "S-shooting needles"




The addict pulled his knees up to his chest, as he watched eren slowly begin to panick. Making such a big deal about something so small and obvious.




"I thought you promised to stop..." Eren said pain ear in his voice.





"Im trying," levi assured. "I havent done anything-"





"Havent done anything?" Eren snorted looking down at the objects in his hand.





"Yeah." The black haired male agreed, rolling his eyes and clinbing off the bed towards a glass of water placed at the corner of the desk.






"Why do you need these if you havent- wont do anything?" Erens voice began to raise, getting my attention.





"Calm down." He groaned, he eyes narrowing in anger towards the argument that was going to occur quite soon.





"Calm down!? How do you expect me to calm down when you could die?" Eren almost shouted, his fingers tight around the needles "you cound DIE, levi!"




"Well i havent yet so im fine. Mind your own buisness, shitstain." He spit back.





The words hit both of them hard, erens eyes widening in shock, and levi immediatly regretting it. Im going to argue, he remembered eren say just last night, please just here me out. Levi took a few steps towards him, grabbing his wrists tightly and leading him to the bathroom . Their hands hovered over the toilet, levis fingers squeezing tighter around the erens wrist as hard as he possibly could, making him wince and release the silver peices of metal into the water. His foot raised, quickly stepping onto the lever, the toilet flushing with mind bursting noise until the needles had dissapeared. Levi walked out of the room, regrouping on his bed, knees to his chest as they had been before. Eren returned to the room shortly after, his eyes focused to the floor.




"Im sorry..." He muttered.




The other male looked towards the window, resting his chin on his knees, refusing to look at eren, like a stubborn child. Though it wasnt a big deal. He hid my face, appauled by the fact that there were extra needles in his sock drawer and he couldnt even bring himself to say something.





"Thank you." Levi added.




He felt the bed shift, as weight was added to the end of it. Erens cold, rough fingertips grazing his cheek. Levi looked out of the corner of his eyes, eren sat in front of him, head cocked, eyes wide like a puppys. He gave in, face turning towards eren, but my eyes still away. Erens thumb traced levis bottom lip before leaning in to kiss, making his eyes flutter shut. Levi leaned back as erens hand on his cheek became to much weight for his weak, struck body to withstand. His legs stretched out, between erens, allowing him to straddle the other. Their hands travled eachothers body through the steamy kiss, making both of them forget about the tempature of the room.





"Do you have any plans for tonight?" Levi asked.





"Not that i know of." Eren replied. "Why."





He smirked through the kiss, "i can make a few."