Heroin

Chapter nine

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"Oh my g-god..." Levi chocked, tears already streaming from his cold grey eyes.

He sat back onto his bum, covering his face with his hands as he began to sob. Eren strugled to sit up, facing his boyfriend.

"Its for the best..." He tried, his eyes watering and big.

"I-its n-ot for- .... the best!" Levi argued through gasps for air "ive been d-doing bet-ter-"

"Levi!" Eren almost laughed. "Have you looked in a mirror lately?"

They both went silent. The older man was almost shocked, was eren trying to tell him he was ugly?

"You have one of the worst withdrawls ive ever seen... I dont know if im helping you or killing you, anymore..." The brunette sounded close to tears, chewing on his bottom lip.

Even now, eren remained calm for levis sake. Levi sobbed, repeatedly wiping tears from his eyes, waiting for the crying to stop so that he could speak. But it didnt stop, and he couldnt get out one word without choking. He tucked his chin to his chest hiding his weakness.

" levi... I need time..." Eren muttered, now crying softly himself "please hear me out..."

The older male shook his head, pulling at his hair. "I- c-a...can-t..."

He struggled to breathe, his hand raising to his chest and tugging at the thin fabric.

"Im going to the store for ice..." The teenager muttered, his voice shaking as he raised to his feet "when i get back... i want you to be gone..."

He made his way towards the bedroom door, as levi sat shaking on the floor, sobbing even more.

"E-eren... Please don-t lea-leave me!" He begged, looking up to the brunette beauty through tears.

Eren looked to his feet, his shoulders shaking, as he shook his head.

"I need y-you, please e-"

"I dont want to be with you!" Eren shouted avoiding eye contact "i cant do this anymore!"

And with that he left, leaving levi in a sobbing heap in the same spot he was before.



--- one week later ---

///Erens pov\\\


Eren layed in his bed, a chair pushed to his door to keep the rest of the world out.

"Eren! You need to come out if there!" His brother shouted from outside the door, vigorously shaking the door handle. "You need to eat, get a shower, you need to stop!"

Eren tore his attention away from the once intresting white wall and glanced to the door. What was the point of life? Love? Pain that chews you inside out and eventually kills you in a rotting heap of fat and age.

"I want to die in here..." Eren muttered.

"Im calling 911, eren, if you dont open this god damn door!"

Eren blinked, his green eyes, a grey brown color. The bags under his eyes, prada. He turned his attention back to the wall as a tear fell down his cheek like it did accassionally. He teached into his pocket, and pulled out a lighter he'd bought for levi when he offered the cigarettes. Now it just looked like a red, tongue of life, reaching its long nails towards the sad boy. Eren reached over, tearing a poster off his wall, and lighting the edge if it on fire. Beautiful, he thought. The reads mixing so perfectly with the oranges, blue third wheeling like a champ. It was beautiful, the only light he had left in his life since he left levi on the floor. He cringed at the thought, and focused on the children on the poster. Their faces melting together to one masacar of a family, gore as their arms turned to ass and their legs nothing more than a blob of dark ness, life around them flaming and crumbling to the sheets. They didnt deserve something so beautiful, they didnt deserve it when eren made the mistake of driving his beauty away. He watched the flame on the poster grow bigger.....


And dropped it to his sheets.



---two weeks later---



/// levis pov \\\


Music blarred, making an artificial heart beat in levis chest. Screams that tore at his ear drums veered from the sterio, covering up the sound of his own cries. Cold substances pulsed through his veins, running through every inch of his body, dialating his pupils, and sending him to a high. He resistedthe urge to let his body shit down and followed the sound of the voices in his head. Consuming alchohol like it was his religion until the thirteenth bottle was empty, glass cold in his hand.

"FUUUUUUUCCCKKK!!!" Levi roared throwing his fist at the wall, still gripping the beer bottle.

The brownish material combusted due to pressure. The man dropped to his knees as blood ran down his hand, to his wrist, to his arm. Shards of glass sunk into his skin, and lay around his feet along with shattered peices of his fragile heart. He desperatly clawed at his arm, fresh with needled welts from the weeks of pain. He couldnt do it, couldnt scratch himself with the nails he had, short, bloody, and crooked. He wouldnt do it anymore. He wouldnt try to fix things. He was fine, he didnt need help. He wouldnt try for himself, his family, friends or eren.

"Fuck! FUCK!" He shreiked.

He was supposed to be at ease right now. But nothing helped, nothing stopped the hurt of loosing eren. Levi pushed himself to his feet and stumbled to his dresser, reaching for the pills he'd bought from D. Hed paid him, bought from him, gave him everything he owed. Yet he still had things unfixable. He shoved the pain killers into his mouth, swallowing them immediatly, ignoring the water.

He already seemed calmer, less angry, more numb, and depressed. He kicked the sterio off his table, letting the music come to a shaking stop. A tear rolled down his cheek as he sat back on his bed. He pretended eren was there, ignoring the other shadows that tormented him as usual. Please eren i need you... He called silently for his old friend, who refused to make am appearance. He choked back a sob as when there was a small knock at the door. Levi ignored it, with a sigh. Until there was another louder knock.

"Fuck off!" He cried, standing up and walking towards the door.

Standing in the cold, with tear stained cheeks was eren.

"Levi.....!" He gasped seeing the drunken, drug endosed state the older male was in.

Eren stepped forward catching levi as his knees gave out and his world went black.

(( summary: for those of you who dont understand.
Eren broke up with levi because levi was putting eren in danger, and eren was making levi unhealthy.
After a week, eren became a mess, regretting leaving levi but he stayed away because he thought it was for the best. He became homicidal and suicidal as well, burning his poster and then trying to burn himself -but for the record he failed-
After two weeks, levi had fixed his issue with D, asikune, and rat. He starte doing drugs again, and alot. He was high (from heroin) and drunk, listening to death metal. Then he took pain killers which calmed him down.
Eren knocked on the door to finly talk to levi after cleaning himself up, and levi passed out because of to much drugs and alchohol as well as shock. ||