Heroin

chapter 12

[ i apologize once again for my lack of activity. i just got a computer so its much easier to write, rather than using my cellphone lol. anyway, im not really sure whats happening so if i resay something, or something doesnt seem right im very sorry.]

ERENS P.O.V

 

Its been awhile since I really felt living. I can feel my heart beating, I can feel it clearly, pounding against my ribcage. I can feel it when I walk. I'm alive. I am walking. I am talking. But that is not living. Levi's fingers are pressed against mine, just abit larger, though he is shorter than me. Hes cold and unhealthy, but I love him all the same. Slowly he closes his hand around mine, his long fingers slide against my skin as they fit their way between mine. This is living. He holds my hand against his chest and I can feel the steady drum of his heart against my hand. I cant help but think how damn lucky I am that hes still alive. It isnt a secret that he doesnt stay very safe... I know one day he will be gone. I dont know how soon, I dont know how it will happen, but it will. Those dark, handsome eyes will close forever and I will no longer feel him against me. What do you do when the person you love more than anything on earth dies? I can see him dying. Bags take up the space under his dull eyes and the sight kills me.

"I love you," he says, but I cant hear him, only see the movement of his thin, soft lips.

"I love you too," I reply almost by habit, or instinct. I dont think he really understands the meaning of love unless hes talking about getting high.

Does he even know how much he means to me?

"Theres a party tonight that my friend is throwing.." Levi said.

The word "friend" caught my attention. Last time I checked, he had none.

"I havent seen him in awhile. And I've been thinking about what you said... I'd like to make friends if it will please you."

"I dont want you going to a party." I replied quickly. I dont mean to be a buzzkill, I'm just doing it to protect him.

"No, no... its not that kind of party... it will be cool, I promise... I want you to come with me." Levi replied. His pales lips curled up in the corners, smirking. God, he cant look sexier than he does right now, shirtless in my bed.

"Okay..."

 

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Later that night Levi and I had plans. He dressed in black skinny jeans that were still baggy on his thin legs. He wore a white shit, that made his unhealthy skin look grey, and thats it. His eyes were just as dark, he looked tired, like he han't slept in days,and his hair was just as stringy as usual. I wore dark jeans, but not black, and they weren't as skinny as Levi's were supposed to be, but hugged my ankles. With that I wore a grey hoodie, and a black blazer. It wasnt like me to go to parties, to talk to strangers. I didnt want them to see even a shred of my skin. It all belongs to Levi. He held my hand as we entered the house, I was shaking. The building looked like it had been abandoned for quite some time, but a string of christmas lights hung around the ceiling to create a dull glow on the dusty room. There wasnt loud music, and people drank beer and wine out of fancy wine glasses. "Do my eyes deceive me?" I heared a deep voice from behind me. Levi curiously looked over his shoulder, as did I. We both looked up, to a quite taller, dark male. Levis lips spread apart to reveal a row of perfect teeth as he smiled. 

"Levi..."

Levi released my hand to go and shake the other males. But instead of shaking hands, they pulled eachother in until their shoulder bumped together, and patted eachother on the back.