Heroin

Chapter seven

|| this is a really short chapter but i hope you like it cx


Also if your confused read the description of this story||





They only had to walk around the corner, because ironically enough the church was righ next to the police station.

"Eren.....?" Levi asked.

He looked sideways at the shorter man as if saying he had his full attention. Levi fumbled with the medication in his pocket.

"Can i hold your hand?....."

Erens cheeks turned a bit red, and he giggled quietly.

"Definatly." He said, holding out his hand.

Levi entwined erens cold fingers with his. He seemed more than happy to show me off to the people they passed by. But there were some strange looks headed in their direction. The only difference is, levi didnt care. His throat already felt tighter as they stepped upon the hard, dead grass. It was a maze, littered by head stones. Name upon name, carved on grey marble. They stopped at the end of a row. Once Blue roses, the color of her bright eyes, sat in the grass, dead and withering. The white ribbon that levi had tied on the stem looked orange with mud stains.

"......petra.....ral...." Eren muttered.

Levi dropped to his shaking knees, his fingers slipping away from erens. He traced her name with the tips of his fingers. It was nothing like the way her hair felt, or the soft skin of her cheeks. He wiped his nose with the sleeve of his jacket.

"Im a terrible person, eren...." The man wimpered.

Petras face flashed through my mind. Alive, happy, beautiful. So much beauty in one small girl. He barely remembered what she looked like without the strobe lights polluting her pale skin, alcohol covering the smell of her. He felt his cheeks freeze with the touch of salty tears.

"No your not-"

"Do you remember what hanji said?" He asked, trying to steady his breathing "she said you were a toy.... Do you know why?"

Eren looked shocked slightly, his fingers fumbling anxiousky with eachother.

"No...."

Levi sniffled. "This was my girl friend..." He beamed towards the grave stone. "Just almost a year ago. She hated drugs, alcohol, anything unnatural, or harmful to people. She reminded me of you."

Eren blushed, hearing the admiration in levis voice.

"I took her to a party." He covered he sob with a laugh. "She didnt want to go but i told her it would be fine. I told her i would take care of her, and it would be fun...." He paused, his lip quivering uncontrolably. "I left her on the dance floor because i had to use the restroom. I left to go do drugs with strangers."

Eren looked the sobbing figure up and down, then glanced towards the stone.

"When i woke up the next morning i found her in the next room, only the feet from the room i was in...."

"Levi, i-"

"She was dead!" He continued, tears flooding his vision. "She was within arms reach all night but i was to fucked up to notice. I told her it would be okay but i ditched her, and she died!"

Erens fingers brushed through levis hair, as he pinched the palm of his hand.

"... A few weeks later her father died of cancer. .... I didnt know he was sick. He was getting better i was told. But when petra died he got worse. And it was my fault. I just kept getting worse."

He ran his hand up his scarred arm. The wounds burning under his jacket. He grabbed erens hand pulling him to his knees beside the other.

"Hanji said you were a toy because i hallustinated of a boy. A boy with your face, your name."

His eyes widened. "W-what...."

"She yelled at me, because i was a freak. The hallustination turned into a friend. Then a sexual fantasy, and then i found you.... And he stopped coming."


The brunette burned red, looking away.

"You never caught my eye because you were cute, or you looked familiar. You didnt appeal to me in the slightest, except the fact that... You are my sexual fantasy."

Eren looked confused and alittle hurt. His cheeks turning red, beyond the point of cold biting his skin.

"This thing..." He started. "The hallustination... Looked like me?"

Levi chuckled "it had your voice, your smell, your eyes," he looked over at him. "Your lips."

Eren looked towards his feet.

"It had the same fucking last name as you."

Buried in his own sobs, levis fingers resuming the trace of letters.

His voice shook with heart break. "I guess nothing was that serious between us anyway."

He sat back from the stone, resting his hand on erens, which anxiously pulled grass from the frozen ground.

"Thats not true." He muttered. "Because you fell in love with me."

His hand held still. Levi could see him out if the corner of his eye, staring at petras grave. The man looked ahead too, reading her name over and over. Petra ral, petra ral, petra ral.

"And i fell in love with you."

Petra ral, loving daughter, girl friend, and soon to be mother.



|| so if you dont understand -cough-

-.- petra was pregnant with levis baby when she died. ||