Still Believe In Magic? (A Buckin Fanfic)

Chapter 12 - I'm Gonna Give You My Heart

Chris' POV

I dropped my bag exhaustedly onto the hotel room floor. I had hardly gotten any sleep the last day apart from a few hours on the plane and we all had a pretty bad jet lag. Jonny seemed to be just as tired as me and let himself drop onto one of the large beds. As I had only booked for me and my children we only had two double rooms so Jonny and me had to sleep in the same room but they were large anyway. But even though I was used to it it would be a lie to say it didn't excite me at least a little.

While traveling we of course didn't have any time to discuss or deepen our newborn relationship and right now neither of us was able to do anything but sleep. But there still seemed to be this undeniable energy between the two of us and it sent shivers through my body everytime I touched Jonny's skin or looked into his eyes. During our long flights Jonny's hand had shyly and inconspicuously found its way onto mine and it had felt so good to have a constant reminder that all this hadn't just been a dream.

After quickly getting ready for bed the four of us were all asleep within minutes.

The next morning I was awakened by the feeling of something heavy on my stomach. At first I was confused about what was happening and where I was but I quickly realized it was Moses trying to wake me from my well-deserved sleep.
The advantage of being in a touring band is that you're used to waking up in hotel rooms, disoriented and not sure if the last night had been a dream or reality.

But this time the events of the previous day felt a lot more unreal than they usually did. I lifted my head and seeing Jonny - still asleep - a few meters away from me brought it all back into my memory.
Moses walked over to Jonny to make him get up as well. The kids luckily didn't have any awkward questions on why Jonny was suddenly coming with us. For them it was totally normal to be around him and he was almost like an uncle to them.

The rest of the day turned out to not be any less stressful. After making our way through countless sights and crowds of tourists we finally decided to seek a little more peaceful place.
We found our way to a nearby nature park and decided to take a rest there. Part of me must have forgotten that having two children around took your full attention when I had hoped to have a chance for a little private moment with Jonny. I was burning to be able to talk everything out with him and feel his body close to mine. Jonny's almost pleading look told me he didn't feel any different.
After all this time of waiting we had finally confessed each other our true feelings and we were dying to find out what it actually meant for our relationship. It had been obvious that this wouldn't be a romantic holiday but I had hoped for a little more action between the two of us.

Apple's squeaking at some cute animal got me back to reality and decided to focus my attention on my children instead. They had missed me just as much as I had and actually I was really happy to finally be spending time with them. I was sure Jonny and me would eventually get our chance to have some time for just the two of us. Until then the kids took all our attention anyway.

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After Apple and Moses had finally fallen asleep at night I quietly closed their door and walked back into my room where Jonny was already waiting for me. It felt awkward after the whole day of being kind of distracted and never alone. There seemed to be so many unsaid words. We both wanted to talk about our relationship and were craving something more but no one really dared to make the first move. To add to that it didn't really feel appropriate right next to our children only parted by one door. In case they would wake up or were not yet asleep they could probably hear every word we were saying so we only dared to speak in a low voice. After an hour of talking about all kind of stuff that was going on in the world but not our relationship I suddenly had an idea.