Wake Up With Amnesia: ON HOLD

Chapter Five - Dear Diary

She didn't remember falling asleep on the couch but it was 6:30 and someone sat on the coffee table in front and was shaking her .

"Rey ... I've gotta go to work ... The keys to the jag and corvette are in the kitchen I'm taking the Porsche" he then rubbed her shoulder and left .

She didn't really hear anything he said expect go to work . She turned over on the couch and fell back to sleep.

The second time she woke up she caught a glimpse of the clock saying 9:40.

She sat up and wondered where her clothing might be . She walked down the long halls . Photos of them littered the halls in sliver frames .

Plenty taken on red carpets . They didn't look like a happily married couple , they looked like they barley liked each other. His hand was at the top of her back instead of her waist.

She passed by another that was her in a white gown and him in a tux , big happy smiles on their faces . His arm around her waist and her flowers held in her hand.

She opened the door of what she could only assume was their bedroom and found a large bed .

She walked in to see more sliver framed photos . Some of him and his cast while others where of her modeling .

She sat down on the edge of the bed and opened the drawer of the nightstand . She found socks and lotion and tissues as well as several photos of her in black and red lingerie. She moved her hand to see several boxes of condoms and the she realized this was his drawer .

She went to the other side of the bed and opened the drawer , inside there was phone chargers and a array of medications. All types of pain killers .

She shuttered and then walked to the doubled mirrors which she hoped was her closest . Half the clothes were suits and tux and nice dress shirts while the other half was gowns and skirts .

Rey walked to the drawers and found leggings and shirts . Some underwear and socks . She pulled out a pair of jeans shorts and a loose shirt then underwear and a bra .

Now all she had to do was find the shower . Luckily she found it , it was a large bathroom . A huge tub laid in one corner with a television with it and then there was a shower .

She opened the medicine cabinet and found more pain killers . Tons of pain killers . Why the hell did they have so many painkillers ?

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She walked into the music room . She saw that it was littered with sheet music and an array of various instruments.

She walked over to a desk and sat down , maybe she had like a CD of some of her songs . Instead she found a journal .

She opened it and read the last opened page.

July 29th 2016,
He's done it again ! He's out late partying or as he fucking says 'rehearsing'... The last time he said he was rehearsing he came home drunk ... And then I had give him a fucking handful of painkillers in the morning !

'So that why they have so many painkillers ' she thought.

I just want out ... I want to be my own person but who the hell would I go to ? Daddy's in Texas and there's no way I could live with them , Finn and Poe are getting a baby ... He's the only thing I have .

Damnit ! If I leave him I have to leave all the money , how the hell am I suppose to do anything without money ?

I mean it's not like I can just take his money , he knows how much I spend because he monitors me like a fucking hawk !

Like Jessika and were shopping for my Good Morning America performance down at Saks and he froze my card ! He fucking froze my crest card .

The second I spend any money that's for my career he freezes my card . But no if I'm buying lingerie then he give a fuck to. !

The only thing I can do in which he'll give me money is buy clothes for premieres that he's going to ... Or if I have to get a wax or hair appointment or to get my teeth whitened .

Rey was so confused ... Was she a gold digger ? Who knows , she doesn't think she is ... She flipped around the pages to find one from a year ago.

July 18th 2015,

Again ... Again with the drinking and the partying and the flirting with other women ! The last time he's said he loves me was when  I finished the photo shoot with Victoria Secret and I handed him some copies ... I found them in drawer ...

He thinks of me as his fucking sex slave I swear it! All it is here's money to buy something sexy... Sometime I think I should just get pregnant so he'll stop .

He doesn't love me anymore and that kills me .... I still love him ... No correction. I love the old Ben !

The old Ben who would curl me close to him when we slept , the Ben who would kiss my lips before he left . The Ben who would call me during his lunch breaks to tell me his misses me . The Ben would come home and sit in my music room and beg to hear my new song. The Ben who bought me my first piano for my 20th birthday.

Not the Ben who drinks and flirts with tons of girls , or fights with me and then tries to have sex ... Not the Ben who FUCKING KISSES OTHER WOMEN AT MY 21ST BIRTHDAY PARTY !

Rey slammed the book shut and put it back in her desk . She sighed and then ran her hands through her hair .

She was married to Ben fucking Solo ... Who lies and cheats and drinks and doesn't love her anymore .

-A.N.-
THE BABY ISNT HERE YET ! FUCK !
-Joey