The fights ... They fight almost every night . Fight about how little time he spends at home. Fight about how she doesn't need a job . Fight that all she is meant to be is a trophy wife , wearing dresses that cost more than college tuition and weddi...
Rey tossed and turned all night . She pretty much hated herself for staying in a relationship like this. He was a horrible man and she was still married to him.
She glanced at the clock . 12:30. He wasn't home yet. She sighed and got out of bed .
Rey walked to the music room. Maybe this journals would help her recall her memories .
February 14, 2015
Most wives get flowers or chocolates or jewelry for Valentine's Day . What do I get ?
A drunken husband.
He came home drunk ... From that stupid ass bar that Hux owns ... One of those stupid ass bars that Hux owns.
My husband is a lousy drunk ... He drinks more than a sailor . He drinks to forget , but I can't help but feel that he drinks to forget me...
Am I not enough anymore ? Did I not drop everything I have to live with him , and love him and be his wife ?
I thought that after Drew's Place got picked up for another season he would stop worrying and stop drinking ... But atlas he hasn't.
Rey ran her hands through her hair . He was a drunk ... A very sexy drunk though ... She had to admit ... He was sexy ... He was really hot but that doesn't mean she should stay married to him ! Not matter what.
November 1, 2015,
My husband has lost every spark we've ever had ... He's poured water on our relationship.
Yesterday was the anniversary of our engagement... I planned a nice dinner , I had his favorite movie in the DVD player and I bought special lingerie for the night.
He came inside form work and he forced me to go to a costume party ... And since I had no costume he put his glasses on me and gave me a short slutty skirt telling me I can be a schoolgirl .
He didn't even remember what yesterday was ... One of the most important things of lives and he forgets it...
I wonder why I stay with him ... Then I remember... I'm a 20 year old trophy wife who didn't go to college and can cook and play piano that's it... Correction I can also pose is slutty bras and underwear and be what teenage boys masterbaute to .
Rey was really shocked ... Is that all she was ?
December 14, 2015,
He didn't say I love you ... He hasn't said it in six months ... And yesterday was our first anniversary...
He bought me present last minute... Correction his assistant bought me the present .
A fucking gift card ... I had made his favorite dinner and ordered his favorite wine from Italy ...
He took a drink of the wine and a bite of the food then had Hux over to watch the game ... ON MY WEDDING ANNIVERSARY
Rey walked over to the piano nearby and slammed her hands on the keys . She regained her composure and then sat up straight .
Her fingers began to key across the keyboard, she had sheet music already opened so she sang from that.
"I guess I can't believe you really came And that we're sitting on this pier See, I'm smiling That means I'm happy that you're here" Rey played the keys of the piano , singing along softly.
"I stole this sweater from a costume shop It makes me look like Daisy Mae See, we're laughing I think we're gonna be okay" she found the music so peaceful and calming .
"I mean, we'll have to try a little harder And bend things to and fro To make this love as special As it was five years ago I mean, you made it to Ohio! Who knows where else we can go" she then moved the tempo a bit.
"I think you're really gonna like this show I'm pretty sure it doesn't suck See, you're laughing and I'm smiling By a river in Ohio And you're mine We're doing fine" she played the music out for a bit then changed the tempo against
"I think we both can see what could be better I'll own when I was wrong With all we've had to go through We'll end up twice as strong And so we'll start again this weekend And just keep rolling along" she says to the beat.
"I didn't know you had to go so soon I thought we had a little time Look, whatever, if you have to Then you have to, so whatever It's all right We'll have tonight"
"You know what makes me crazy? I'm sorry, can I say this? You know what makes me nuts? The fact that we could be together Here together Sharing our night Spending our time And you are gonna choose someone else to be with No, you are Yes, Ben , that's exactly what you're doing: You could be here with me Or be there with them As usual, guess which you pick" the melody shifted to a harsher faster temp.
"No, Ben , you do not have to go to another party With the same twenty jerks you already know You could stay with your wife on her f**king birthday And you could, God forbid, even see my show And I know in your soul it must drive you crazy That you won't get to play with your little girlfriends" the words cut harshly into the air around it.
"No, I'm not, no I'm not! And the point is, Ben, That you can't spend a single day that's not about You and you and nothing but you "Mahvelous" novelist, you! Isn't he wonderful, just twenty-eight The savior of writing You and you and nothing but you Miles and piles of you Pushing through windows and bursting through walls En route to the sky And I..." She held the note out.
"I swear to God I'll never understand How you can stand there straight and tall And see I'm crying And not do anything at all" Rey finished the song and he hands flew from the keys to her face to wipe her tears .
She felt everything coming back . The anger , the hate , the emotions , the alcohol, the yelling , the fighting , the being a trophy wife ...
"Rey get your head out of you ass ! You're always going to be know as my wife ! No one is going to see you as anything but a young trophy wife damnit !" Ben yelled at her ."
-A.N.-
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LOOK AT THE WAY THAT SHE LOOKS AT HIM ! SHE LOOKS AT HIM LIKE "yeah I know what your lips feel like ... SUCK IT ANTIS !"
