How Pizza Saved My Love Life

14. "You have never been to a party before?"

Warning: unedited fml.

"You haven't told anyone right, Kim?" I tell Kim whom I was talking to on the phone. It was Friday and I can't even describe how awkward it was whenever Joe and I made eye contact during the week at school. My feelings for Jordan are not helping either. Maybe if I didn't feel what I feel when I'm around Jordan, Joe would have a shot but I know Joe and I know that he wouldn't want to be a second choice.

"No, Aubrey, of course not." I relax a little when she answers me. "What are you going to do tonight?"

"Drown in my own misery." I huff and hug the nearest pillow.

"What? No. I will not let that happen, you're going out." She says and I roll my eyes then I remember she can't see me.

"No I'm not. I'm staying home forever and I'm gonna tell my parents I wanna be homeschooled so I won't have to deal with all the shit at my school." I groan.

"Aubrey," she says in a warning tone, "Aaron, Dylan and I are going to a party tonight. Maybe you can call Jay and come with us."

"Trust me, Jordan won't come." I remember his pizza shift.

"Why not?" She asks me confused.

"He's busy." I say flatly.

"Well you can still come." She insists. I sigh on the other end of the line and bite my my bottom lip hard. I really don't wanna go but staying home won't do me any good either.

"I'll think about it Kim. I'll call you later, okay?" I say and then hang up after we say our goodbyes.

I go downstairs and sit in the living room where my parents were. I vigorously flip through the channels of the TV, not even paying attention to what was on the screen.

"Sweetie, give me that you're gonna break it." My dad takes the remote from me slowly.

"Is everything alright Aubrey?" My mom wraps an arm around me.

"No, mom. Everything is not alright. I hate everything and I don't wanna go to school anymore. I mean, it's not even necessary I learned what I need to know about math and science and grammar." I ramble and my dad chuckles quietly. I narrow my eyes at him snd he raises his hands in mock surrender.

"Well, what happened?" Mom says.

"There's a boy that told me he loved me, but I have feelings for someone else who probably doesn't care about me half as much as I care about him." I put my face in my hands.

"Is the boy that loves you Joe?" My mom smiles.

"Wait, how did you know that?" My eyes widen in shock.

"Hold on you and Joe aren't together?" My dad asks cluelessly.

Really, dad? Really?

"No, dad we're not and we never were. Where did you get that?"

"I don't know you two always seemed like a couple to me." He shrugs and goes back to reading his book.

"And who is the boy you have feelings for then?" My mom plays with my hair.

"Jordan." I shamefully admit in a low voice.

"Oh, I like that boy."

"Yeah me too, but you're not helping mom." I groan. "What should I do?"

"I think you should make sure Jordan feels the same way. If he does then you shouldn't hold back your feelings because of someone else." She gives me a sweet smile. I never talked to my mom about that kind of stuff. It's not because I wasn't comfortable with her. It's just that nothing like that has ever happened to me before and there was nothing to talk about.