How Pizza Saved My Love Life

16. "You don't like being called Jordan."

This is Jordan. You're welcome ;)

Songs of the chapter:

Long way down -One Direction

Jet black heart -5SOS.

*excuse me I'm such trash.

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The school week past in a blur. Nothing was as exciting anymore. Jordan was completely ignoring me and I was just as equally guilty of avoiding him. I wouldn't sit at his table with Kim, Aaron and Dylan either. Kim and Aaron asked me quite a few times what happened between me and Jordan but I would just tell them it didn't work out and that we weren't officially together in the first place. And Dylan was just...Dylan I guess. He would crack a couple jokes about how Jordan couldn't maintain a relationship for more than three weeks but nobody would find them funny. I guess I was right after all. Before we played the 'game'  I told him he couldn't. However, now I don't feel the rush of saying 'I told you so'.

At lunch, I would go to the art room and just draw meaningless sketches. I ate my lunch there with Ms. Watkins. She was my favorite teacher in this school, only a few years in her twenties. She always believed in me even when I couldn't draw for shit. Now that I've improved, I couldn't be more thankful that she never put me down.

"You know, avoiding the cafeteria won't get you anywhere." She spins on her chair, her bouncy curly hair framing her face. I smile at her and bite my lip in shame. It is a little bit embarrassing that she noticed I was avoiding something.

"I just don't know if I'm ready to go there yet." I fumble in the box next to me for an eraser absentmindedly.

"You can tell me what's bothering you if you want." She offers sweetly.

"It's nothing I wanna talk about, really." I sigh and run a hand through my hair.

"I know how you feel. Teenage years suck. Trust me, though, you'll get through them and sometimes you'll even miss them." She says with a dreamy smile, playing with her colorful scarf.

I wonder how that will be. When I'm away from here, studying at some college out of this little town, or at my job, doesn't matter. How will it feel when I'm out of this place? When Jordan would just be something I barely even remember, or when Joe becomes an old friend that I haven't talked to in a long while? It's weird to think about but life has its ways to make all that happen without you even knowing it, I guess.

"How was it? College I mean." I ask her curiously.

"Oh, it was a blast. I got to study something i was actually good at." She chuckles. "Away from all the high school drama. You'll never take any of that with you .Besides, meeting new people is great. Even though it may sound scary, it's actually very exciting"

"Trust me. Nothing is as scary as this place." I laugh a little. She gives me a weird look and licks her lips before speaking.

"I don't have to be right, though. A lot of my friends are still in touch with their high school friends. It can be the same for you, you never know." She sips whatever was in her mug.

"Yeah that's definitely gonna be me." I say sarcastically.

"Well, why wouldn't it be?" She frowns.

"You're talking to a girl who is hiding out in an art room from the people in the cafeteria." I laugh and she joins me, shaking her head.

"Avoiding your problems until they go away doesn't work. Been there, done that. It only makes you look like a coward." She points her forefinger in front of the tip of my nose.