Taking the steps
To try and fit in
Because maybe it will light
Me up once again
Be outgoing
Be funny
Hang out with everyone you know
All the time
Say what you want to say
Without being afraid
Dont let them drown you out
Be brave
But that's not me...
I'm quiet
I hate hanging out with people
I hate going out
I hate making jokes all of the time
Im not brave
I'm not even likeable
Not even in the slightest
Because I don't go out with friends
I don't talk
I don't
I just don't
At least the real me doesn't
That isn't me that you see laughing with the strangers with a drink in hand at the party
That's not me
Forcing myself to swallow my pride to talk to someone first
That's not me
Cracking jokes and making you laugh
That's not me
Over the years I've forced myself to hide away
Away from the sun
Away from the ones who say they love me
I've never been my true self around anyone
Because I know that if I am me
They would all leave
Because they'd see how awful and boring I really am
I'm a constant reminder that death exists
That the world is bad
That no matter what you do
We all end up the same in the end
We all lose the ones we love
And the truth is we never knew who they were in the first place
And I feel that if they were to see down
Into my soul
Into my heart
Into my mind
They would scream and run
Because a monster lies beneath the surface of the person I pretend to be
And I don't know how near or how far it is
To showing itself
And exposing the real me
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The Light
PoetryA book of simple poetic pieces that come from the heart. There isn't much punctuation in this one. Read it the way you feel. Read it like spoken poetry if you'd like. Be aggressive, be sad, cry when you read it. But please, don't feel nothing, becau...
