what should've happened... Jacob and Bella's love story

Two Days Till...

LONG CHAPTER WARNING!!! Dont say I didnt warn you!

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December 29th 

I wake up sprawled all over Jacob, I look down to his bare chest and see that a very small pool of spit is on him. I blush scarlet and grab my shirt off the floor and wipe it off. I get off of him very slowly, to not wake him. He deserves as much sleep as he can get for he is going to be running all over the place for the next three days. I walk straight into the shower and begin showering. As the hot water races down my body, I begin to feel all the commitments my words made yesterday. I will stand in the field... where the most cunning vampire I have ever met will try her hardest to kill me. I will tell the pack everything I know about the Cullens and all the other vampires I have ever met. I will tell them about the Denali clan and the Volturi. I will tell them everything I know. I know I'm not with Edward anymore but it still feels like a betrayal. They made me into who I am today and it felt wrong to tell the pack all of these things, even if its necessary. 

Silent tears begin to roll down my face and before I knew it I was sobbing. I was terrified and I was sure someone, possibly me, wasn't going to make it. Victoria is the most notorious vampire I have ever met. I was going to die, or someone in the pack was. There was no ifs, only whens. My sobs seemed to have woken Jacob up because he slipped into the shower with me and wrapped me into an embrace that made me sob even harder. I couldn't lose him and he couldn't lose me. If he died, I died. It was the same the other way around. I continued to sob as Jacob took care of me. He shampooed and conditioned my hair, soaped me down and rinsed me off. Once I was all clean, he lifted me up and dried me up with a towel. My sobs and tears eventually died down but I was still hyperventilating. God, how pathetic must I look right now? Suck it up! I yelled at myself internally. I began taking deep breathes and calmed myself down. Jacob just waited for it to pass. He held me through all of it.

I stopped crying, hyperventilating, and took control of myself once again. I will not cry again until this is over. I will not cry again until this is over. I will not cry again until this is over. I continued to chant that in my head when I heard Jacob speak. 

"Bella, honey-," he purred into my ear "-are you okay? You know you don't have to tell us anything if you don't feel ready." 

"I have to. As much as it will hurt. I will. The pack needs this information for now and in the future. I will speak. Take me to Emily's place. I need to see Sam." I said.

"As you wish, my love."

Ten minutes later, we were walking into Emily's house. Sam looked up from the table, dark circles underneath his eyes already. He kept looking at me until I sat down right in front of him. Emily got up to get me a cup of coffee and Jacob settled in right next to me, he grasped my hand tightly. Everything I am about to do will betray everything I have known. I will betray the first person I loved and loved me back. I will betray the first family who has ever taken me in for me. I will be betraying the entire vampire race with mentions of the Volturi. Even thinking about them made me shiver. Emily placed a cup of coffee in front of me and I thanked her. Then I sat up straighter and looked Sam straight into his eyes.

"Bella, you don't have to do this. I know this is against your being. As much as I know you are with us, your past has been with the vampires. If this is too painful for you, you must stop at once." Sam said in a very serious tone.

"No, you guys need to know this before you fight her." I said.

Jacob grabbed my hand even tighter, I knew hearing this will hurt him just as much as me. And I turned momentarily to tell Jacob I loved him. He told me he loved me too, immediately. Then I began.