The Story of My Life

A Little Bit About Alexa

Alexa's Point-of-View

Hey!!!! What's up? I'm Alexa. My best friends are Marlee, Morgan, Laura, Emma, Zeina, Allyce, and Lauren. I have other friends though like Becca, Kasie, Tara, Mackenzie, Autumn, Ashley, and more. Like me and the other people in the drama club. That includes Alyssa, Gia, Austin, Emma, and I. I am always the lead in the play and never miss a show. I want to be on broadway when I'm older! Well it is in my blood anyway!

My dad, Eli Goldsworthy, is a director, actor, and producer on Broadway. He lives for broadway. He lives in Broadway. Well technically New York City. You see i was born in South Philly but lived in South Jersey. My parents are from Canada but because of school they moved to New Jeresey. Anway, I then moved to Australlia for my dads work. That's where i met my four best guy friends. There names are Luke, Ashton, Michael, who I call Mickey, and Calum. They are in a band called Five Seconds of Summer. They have a YoutTube channel which is pretty cool. Sorry I'm getting off topic. Anywho, after a bit of living down under(A/N:no dirty thoughts please!), My family and I moved back to Jersey but this time North. Although my family moved back my sister stayed to attend The Dance Academy. Abigail is an amazing dancer. I'm so proud of her even though she is ten years older than me. She now is a teacher there. While Abigail was in Sydney liviong her dream my brother Jacob and I went to school in New York City. We went to a hebrew school there. It was a bit of a long commute considering that we lived in north Jersey and went to school in New York City but my parents made do. But when my parents divoriced in grade three my mother got a new job as a high payed nurse in London, England. Now I live with my mom whose name is Clare, stepdad whose name is Lee, brother who's younger by two years named Jarrod and my little sister by three years named Seana. My brother Jacob is now at war. i miss him a lot but I'm very proud of what he chose to do in his life. His best friend Ed Sheeran used to live with uys and we became really close. My mother became his as well because he has some family problems. He is like another brother to me. He and my brother were there for me the day I found out that I was pregnant. I also have a half sister who was adopted by my dad and stepmom, Stephani. My sissys name is Nicole. When my dad and Stephani adopted her they weren't married yet so she took her moms name which is Polizzi. Although Stephani and my dad are now married they never changed my little meatballs name. She is 5 years younger than me. Her situation is sort of like mine is. My mom and dad weren't married when they had me or my brother so we got the last name Calder and my parents never bothered to change our last names. You see my sister Abigail has a different dad but he wasn't really around that much so she calls my dad, dad and still does. But she's married now and has kids. And a different last name. Hmmmmmm? Am i forgetting anyone now? Oh yeah... that's right! My stepbrother...Aiden. Yay...sense the sarcasm? Ugh! He is Lee's son. Honestly I don't know how they are related. Lee is so nice and cuddley. Aiden though... Aiden... he is a monster. He really is. He is a part of one of London's biggest streeet gangs. Even the police are afraid of him. his gang has guns too. It is scary to know that a killer lives in the room right next to yours. He acts like he's the perfect son and perfect student when he's at home and school. I dread the days when it's just me and him...in the house...alone. He thinks since I have kids at sixteen that I have sex all of the time. Even if he didn't think that he would probably still rape me. You are all probably saying,

"Well why don't you say anything?"

He has thretened me before that he would do worse things to me and to the people I love if I ever dared to tell. So that's why I keep my mouth shut.

That's why I cut. I've been self-harming ever since I found out that I was pregnant. So about since I was thirteen, so for three years now. Wow. Time sure does fly by...

I know what you all are thinking.

":Wow! Thriteen!?!? Isn't that a bit to young?????"

Yeah it is. People call me a slut all the time where really, I was dumb and stupid and thought I was in love with this guy. Me and him are still friends though. We hang out. Well not by ourselves but with a bunch of people. Like a group. Actually my boyfriend of two months, almost three, is friends with him too and doesn't mind us haning out at all!

We both decided to put them up for adoption. We thought that they would be better off with 30 year olds taking care of them rather than 13 year olds taking care of them. We only did it because we love them. I, and I know Joey too, love them with all of my heart.

Now let me tell you about my amazing boyfriend.

His name is Louis Tomlinson.

We became official after two months of dating. Then a month later he met my family and kids and I met his family in Doncatser. He is completley fine with the fact that I have kids. I think he likes them more than he likes me. And I'm completley fine with that. It turns out that our moms know eacother too! Durring the summer my mom works down in Doncaster at the hospital there. So does Louis' mom. I love his family so much. And they adore me too! Especially his sisters.

Louis is most likeley the best thing that has ever happened to me. Other than my kids of coarse! Ever since he came around I've been cuttung less. he doesn't know that though because he doesn't know that I cut myself. The only person who does is Marlee because she accidently saw me once. I told her that there is really nothing that she can do so she just watches it happen. I feel bad but whatever. I've been clean from cutting for a week now, I plan on not cutting for a while. I hope I can keep my word on that. But as for right now...I'm happy. I'm doing good in school, I have awesome friends, my kids are happy and healthy, and last but certainly not least, a perfect boyfriend. Let's just hope that lasts...