Filling in the Pieces // Luke Brooks

Chapter 48 - It's for the Better

        Two weeks, two long weeks it has been since the accident and Luke still hasn't woken up. There has been no movement what's so ever, other than the rising and falling of his chest. It's frustrating and heartbreaking not knowing when he will wake up, or if he ever will. Now I know exactly how he felt when I was in this position, and let me tell you, I feel awful.

        Sitting in this hospital room for most of my days has given me time to do some thinking. As much as I love Luke, I can't help but think that he would be better off without me. Everything Luke has been through was because of me. He doesn't deserve to suffer because of me. Of course I will be here for him, but he might be better off with us just being friends. It hurts me to think that, but it's for the best. It's for Luke.

        I was sitting in the hospital room alone. Beau is at the farm with my grandpa at the moment and Jai is with my mom downstairs in the cafeteria. Right now there is a massive storm in Australia so Luke's mom is unable to get a flight here. So that leaves just Luke and I. My hand is laced with his, but it feels cold and stiff. How I miss the feeling of him holding my hand, holding me, kissing me. My mind is in a constant battle of staying with him or leaving him.

        "Luke you have to wake up. I need you to wake up. You're leaving in a couple weeks for your tour. You need to wake up for that," I spoke to him like he was awake and ready to respond, but there was still nothing.

        I sat there and stared down at the floor as a tear slipped down my cheek. I was staring for a while until I heard a very quiet groan. I shot my head up to see Luke look exactly the same as he did before. I must be hearing things. Then I heard the noise again, another groan escaped his lips. I was in total shock. Was he waking up? I couldn't move and then all of a sudden I felt a slight squeeze on my hand. He was holding my hand. He was moving. He was making noises. He was waking up. I finally felt the words spill out of my mouth.

        "Luke? Luke, can you hear me?" He smiled when he heard my voice and he nodded ever so slightly. "I'm going to get the nurses. I'll be right back." I said and I ran out of the room to retrieve the nurse.

        When we got back to the room they told me that I had to wait outside for a while until they made sure he was fine. As I paced back and forth in the hallway I called Beau for him to get down here and called Jai and my mother from downstairs. With in half an hour everyone had arrived and the nurses said we could go in one at a time.

        "He is asking for Kait," the last nurse said as she walked out of the room. I just smiled and nervously walked into the room knowing what I had to do. 

        "Luke? How are you feeling?" I asked as I took a seat in the chair that I have claimed mine over the past couple weeks. He turned his head towards me and a tear slipped down his cheek.

        "Kait, I am so sorry," he said, shakily grabbing my hand.

        "Why are you sorry? Luke you saved my life, which is something you stupidly did, but you shouldn't be sorry," I said with a smile. He kissed the top of my hand and smiled back at me. There was a long pause between us.

        "Luke you know I love you right?" I paused and looked up at him to see him nod slightly before watching me intently. How was I going to put this. I don't want to do this or say this, but I have to. "Well I've been thinking over these last couple days and I believe we should take a break..." I breathed out, my voice shaking unsteadily. 

        "What? Why?" He asked, confused.

        "It kills me to say this, but you being with me is too dangerous. All I have done is hurt you, whether it was mentally or physically and I can't do that to you any more. I'm sorry." Tears began to flow down my face. I couldn't look at him. I didn't want to, because if I did I was scared that I would change my mind. I had to do this though, no matter how much it hurts. Before he could say anything or fight me about it, I got up and ran out of the room, but I was stopped by Jai on the way out.

        "Whoa, what happened?" Jai asked, grabbing my arm. I just shrugged his arm away and walked towards my mom.

        "Can you drive me home please," I said in almost a whisper. The expression on my face said it all and she didn't question why, but instead grabbed her purse and led me out of the hospital.

        "Do you want to talk about it?" She asked as she kept her eyes on the road. The evening sun beat down heavily on the windows which easily showed the glossy tears that stained my cheeks.

        "I broke up with Luke."

        "What? Why? You guys were so good together," she asked glancing at me, worryingly.

        "It's a long story that I don't really want to talk about," I miserably replied, resting my head on the window.

        "Okay," she sighed.

        Did I really make the right choice?

~~~~~~~~

Hey sorry for the short chapter. I know I know you want to kill me for what I did. Hopefully it will get better for Kait and Luke. You will just have to wait and see. Enjoy!
- Kaitlyn xoxo