The Wanted Directions

Chapter 7

The boys met up in the hospital, Max and Nathan were the only ones to check up on Zayn. Outside the room, Niall and Louis glared at Tom and Siva. The tension was so thick you could cut it with a knife.

"Zayn wants us to take him to his mother's house," Nathan said carrying Zayden in his arms who was still sleeping. Siva kissed his forehead and sat back down. Niall watched fondly of how Nathan handled children. Soon enough, it was only Louis,Max, Tom and Siva in the lobby.

"I'm  leaving," Louis said, abruptly getting up.

"Where," Tom whispered, looking up at Louis.

"I'm not getting an abortion anymore, but not home. Bye Max." Louis concluded walking to the elevator.

"Did i scare him that much," Siva whispered." That he ended up in the hospital?"

"Was i that bad, that Louis regrets meeting me?" Tom said.

"Look guys, as your friend i want to say, it'll be alright, but i don't know this time." Max said walking to the elevator. Silence filled the air.

"Seev, I'm going to follow Louis. I don't know what to say, but you know," Tom said getting up. Siva nodded as Tom escaped to the elevator.

Slowly, Siva got up and walked to Zayn's door. He sat outside it and leaned his head against the wood, heating Zayn breathe, hears his quietly sing.

I lie alone, awake at night

Sorrow fills my eyes

But I'm not strong enough to cry

Despite my disguise

I'm left with no shoulder but everybody wants to lean on me

I guess I'm their soldier

But whose going to be mine.

Who's there to save the hero

 When he's left all alone

And he's crying out for help

Who's there to save the hero

After he saves the world

After he saves the world

I bottle all my hurt inside

I guess I'm living a lie

Inside my mind each day i die

What could bring me back to life

A simple word, a gesture

Someone to say your beautiful

Come find this buried treasure

Rainbows leans to a pot of gold

I've given too much of myself and now its driving me crazy

I'm crying out for help.

Sometimes i wish someone would just come here and save me

Save me from myself

Who's there to save the hero

After he saves the world.

Tears trickle down Siva's face as he realizes how Zayn must have felt during the last few days. And how he must act like its okay. As if he's not dying to die. Wiping off his face, he gets up and slowly opens the door. Walking to the bed, he stares at Zayn for a while before placing a kiss on his forehead, whispering,"I still love you," than he put his hand on Zayn's stomach, before placing a kiss there.

Both of them knew that Zayn wasn't sleeping, but for a moment, it was okay.

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Max arrived home, knowing Liam was still in Brazil for soccer. Turning on the lights, he made his way to the kitchen grabbed a beer and went upstairs in their bedroom.

Nothing was missing, but a camera on its tri-pod was at the foot of the bed . Confused, Max turned it on and clicked on the most recent video. His eyes budged as e made out the two figures. Niall and Liam. Throwing the camera down, he realized that one beer wouldn't be enough. And soon headed out to a bar.

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The next day;

"Hey Niall. I'm fine and I'm checking out so if you could come by and pick me up." Zayn called Niall and asked as he signed the last of the papers. Walking out the door, he waited on a bench near the parking lot. He saw Niall's silver Ferri drive up next to him and opened the passenger door.

"Thanks Niall-" Zayns aid buckling himself, not looking at the driver.

"Zayn," Siva said. Zayn froze in his position before slowly turning to face the driver.

"Niall let me borrow his car to pick you up because you wouldn't go with me." Siva explained looking down in his lap.

"Just drive me to my mother's" Zayn said facing forward.

"She wants to spend quality time with her grandson, you wouldn't take that from her," Siva said cracking a smile.

It took a lot of Zayn's will power not to smile, instead he threw a glare at Siva before he started the car.

"So, do you know the gender yet." Siva said after a while driving.

"No, Siva, I don't"

"I was thinking maybe we could see a marriage counselor and fix-" Siva started.

"There's nothing to fix,"Zayn said, trying not to become stress.

"Stress isn't good  for the baby," Siva added.

"Than stop talking to me,"

"Maybe we should spend-"

"Siva. I know you're only trying this because of your publicity and the baby. Not because you love me anymore. Maybe we got married to early? Or maybe we just thought it was love?" Zayn rambled.

"But we got Zayden, and another one."

"Only good thing from the marriage," Zayn said looking out the window.

"Do you hate me that much," Siva scoffed.

"Yes, i hate you as much as you hate me,"

"I don't hate you,"

"Than why would you make me go through all the heart ache of having you leave for business than sending divorce papers and making sure my son doesn't know about it. Making Louis keep his baby and talking to Niall so he wont feel so lonely, while putting a smile on. Because for the past couple of days, that's my shit, i went though." Zayn said, tears watering his eyes.

"Your son?" Siva questioned

"Yes, because you are MIA most of the time."

Siva pulled up to Zayn's mother house. Quickly Zayn jumped out and so did Siva.

"Zayn," Siva called jogging to catch up to Zayn.

"What, what do you want from me?"Zayn said, with more tears coming down his face as he wiped them away.

Siva just threw his arms around Zayn and held him until he stopped struggling and sobbed into his shoulder.

"I hate you,"

"No, you don't"

"I know, but I should hate you."

They continued to hug until Siva pulled away, using his sleeve he wiped away most of Zayn's tears, looked him in he eyes and kissed him softly.

"I'm sorry," Siva said after pulling away from Zayn. Zayn just nodding releasing Siva and walked into his mother's house.

Sighing Siva got back in the car, and took a moment to cry,"I really did lose him," he whispered to himself. Wiping his tears away, he drove back to Niall's house to drop off his car.