Remorse [iKON Series #1 - Bobby] COMPLETED

02

SEOLHYUN

I keep on thinking what's my dream is all about? Bakit sa panaginip ko parang super in love ako sa kanya. Its like just the two of us. Para bang sa aming dalawa lang umiikot ang mundo.

Nevermind. After all, its just a dream. Falling in love with him won't happen. I swear.

"Seolhyun anak bilisan mo, nasa labas na si Jiwon hinihintay ka."

Napatigil bigla ang pagkilos ko. The fuck why is he here again? Akala ko ba last na yung kahapon?

Bwisit.

Umagang-umaga sirang sira na araw ko nang dahil sa kanya. Great Kim Jiwon.

"Papasukin mo na kaya muna si Jiwon, yeobo. Mainit sa labas, itong si Seolhyun mabagal kumilos eh." Rinig kong sabi ni papa habang padabog akong bumababa.

Dumiretso ako sa cr para maligo ng hindi tumitingin kila mama at papa, siguro nasa loob narin sya ng bahay.

Nagmadali akong maligo dahil una sa lahat, ayokong may naghihintay sakin gaya ng ginagawa nya ngayon. Naiinis talaga ako. I should think for something na magiging dahilan para layuan nya na ko. Sawang-sawa na ko sa pagmumukha nya at sa pagiging ma-effort nya.

"Goodmorning Seolhyun." Bati nya sakin nung pagkababa ko sa sala. I just nodded at him then went back to the dinning room para kumain kahit konti.

"Bye ma, pa. Alis na po ako." I gave them both a kiss of goodbye bago ako lumabas ng bahay. Ng hindi sya inaaya.

I think dapat talagang magpakarude ako sa kanya para marealize nyang hindi dapat ako yung babaeng gugustuhin nya.

I went inside his car without uttering any word for him. I should keep silent, I don't want to talk to him.

"Seolhyun sorry nga pala kung hindi ako nakapagsabi sayo na susunduin kita ngayon. Kase ano— gusto kitang isurprise. Sorry talaga."

I nodded. Alam nya na yun.

I saw his jaw clenched after I nodded at him. Feel ko he's pissed, how I wish.

"We're here." He said. Gaya ng nakagawian nya, sya unang lumalabas at pagbubuksan ako ng pinto.

I start walking away from him, I heard him call me but I pretend not hearing him. Ayoko na talagang makasama sya.

"Hey girl! Ang lonely mo naman dyan. Anyway good morning! Smile naman dyan oh." Bati sakin ni Shannon. Himala wala pa si Jinny, lagi silang sabay nun ah.

"Wag ngayon Shannon." I said.

"Ay I know why you're like that. Its fafa Jiwon right? Ikaw talaga bat ba kasi ang rude mo sa kanya? I saw how you walk away from him kahit na di pa sya tapos isarado yung car nya." She said while pouting. "To be honest, masyado ka na talagang rude sa kanya girl. Ilang taon ka na nyang nililigawan pero no answers?"

I rolled my eyes before heaving a deep sigh.

"I don't know Shannon. Maybe he's just too good for me kaya ayaw ko sa kanya."

"Kahit mga 5% of feelings wala ka for him? Sayang naman that guy—"

"Huy girls!" Uh finally Jinny is here. "Ano yang hot topic nyong dalawa today huh?" Ako na naman ang nasa hot seat lagi.

"About kay Fafa Jiwon. Naaawa na kase ako sa kanya. Alam nyo yun, 3 years nya nang nililigawan si Seolhyun pero look at our lovely friend, pusong bato!" Pailing-iling na sabi ni Shannon. Kung di ko lang kaibigan to, malamang kanina ko pa nabugbog to.

Sya boto kay Jiwon, sure ako dun. Hindi ko lang alam kay Jinny.

"Is that so? Oh well- si Seolhyun naman kase ang magdedecide nyan if ano ang plan nya regarding with Jiwon and her relationship." Hmm I agree.

"Pero kahit na, nasasaktan yung tao oh. Kahit hindi nya ipakitang nasasaktan sya ni Seolhyun I'm sure he's hurting a lot." Defend naman ulit ni Pro-Jiwon.

"Eh nasasaktan na pala sya bat hindi sya humanap ng iba? There are lots of girls out there, bakit ako? Bakit sakin nya pinagsisiksikan sarili nya? He ain't ugly so for sure there are girls who got their eyes on him pero he chose someone to pursue, the who can't love him back? Ang bobo nya naman!" I said. Feeling ko naubusan ako ng hininga dun.

"Tama ka dyan girl! Pwede namang ako nalang? Hehe pero joke lang." Pagbibiro ni Jinny. Kung pwede ko lang ipasa si Jiwon sa kanya why not diba.

"Hay nako! Basta kung ako sayo Seolhyun, I suggest you to try being nice to him. Tell him na hindi mo sya kayang mahalin talaga but not in a rude way girl!" Hmp. I'll try to but I can't promise.

I just shrugged at her.

That's the end of the discussion.

After two consecutive periods of class, break time na but I won't eat here since after nun wala narin akong subject. Himala na walang Jiwon na nagpapakita sakin. That's great.

"Calling Kim Seolhyun! Hi, alam mo naman kung sino ako diba? I know kilala mo ko. I just want to tell you how much I love you. Everyday, ikaw ang bumubuo ng araw. You're the reason why I'm still living. Always remember that you'll be the only one in my heart. Always and forever, til death."

I stopped walking. All of them are looking at me. Well they knew me. Most of the students know me.

Hindi ko alam kung matutuwa or maaasar na naman ako sa ginawang yun ni Jiwon. Like nakakahiya!

Who is he to use that announcing mic to let everyone know he loves me? The fuck. Ang korni nya.

After nung nakakahiya nyang confession yung mga studyante super kilig. Duh. Hindi nakakakilig kase nakakasira ng araw! Badtrip.

Palit kami pwesto, sila kaya maging ako para dama nila yung kabwisitang dinadala ni Jiwon sa tuwing nagkikita kami.

Buti nalang hindi na sya nagpakita sakin after nung napakacheap nyang announcement. I straightly went home alone, peacefully! Ang sarap sa feeling.

How I wish lagi nalang ganito. Yung walang biglang susulpot habang naglalakad ka. Yung walang susundo at maghahatid sayo sa bahay everyday. Feeling ko sobrang peaceful ng araw ko ngayon. Ang saya!